Thursday, March 24, 2016

In Competition with Myself

I'm doing much better physically and mentally.


It doesn't matter about the small stuff. I am looking at the big picture. I am not always going to be in a wheelchair. I am stretching myself a little bit more each week. I am making progress. 

If you aren't seeing results, stop. Just stop for a minute. Quiet your thoughts. Look around. Are you closer to your goal than you were a month ago? If the answer is yes, that means something.

Michelangelo didn't paint the Sistine Chapel in a day. It took time to complete the task. Instead of saying, "I wish I could run _____ of miles, or do ______ amount of sit ups..." Focus on what you are doing. Doing a little bit of something is better than a whole lot of nothing.

My Granny told me that every movement I make is something. I've tried to remember that. I am reminding myself of that today. Every few steps that I make are getting me closer to my goal. Every step I take is making me stronger. Sure, I can't see bulging calf muscles yet, but underneath my skin, my muscles are firing and getting stronger. When you've been down as long as I have, it takes time to get back up!

I realized something today. I am not in competition with anyone. I am in competition with myself. I've known it to an extent, but I really GOT it today! How much farther can I push myself today? What other exercises can I do that I forgot about?  To win this battle, I am encouraging myself. 

This morning I read something, and it caused me to worry. I felt myself getting emotional. Some of those same thoughts tried to creep in, but I recognized it. I said, "No! I will NOT waste another second thinking about this." I can't go back and change all of those years that I wasn't able to be very mobile or active. I can do something about today. The ones who win are the ones who keep getting back up. I am celebrating where I am right now and looking to the future. It is bright, friends!