Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Another Person's Perspective

Someone asked me, "When (with emphasis) are you going to drive?"

"I don't know" was my response.

"Well, what do you do all day?"

I told her, but nothing I said was good enough.

When I said I was walking, she asked, "How much?"

She proceeded to tell me about a paralyzed person who lives by herself and was doing a road trip.

"There's so much more to life than these four walls, " she said. "You are limiting yourself."

As if that weren't enough, she said, "You've just got to want to."

What the woman didn't know was I had a very painful morning. It had taken hours to get my body in a good place. I wasn't in the mood to fight. I didn't have the energy or mental focus to respond.

Now I would say, "What does it matter to you what I do all day? Why do you have to be so negative? Driving isn't an end all be all thing. I have to learn to walk again before I can think about driving."

I do want to do more. I strive to do that every day. I have goals. I help other people. I am creative. I know that I am not limiting myself. I know there are multiple ways to do things in life. Just because I don't do things just like everyone else doesn't mean I am not making a difference.

She said she was so impressed with that paralyzed woman because she had never seen anyone in her condition do all that. 

I am thankful for every person who overcomes the odds. My situation is different, though. I am not paralyzed. I feel more than anyone knows. If you haven't lived in my body, you don't know what I go through and what I have overcome.

Like a friend told me, "Anyone can walk, but few people ever go anywhere."

You can have unlimited potential and never take advantage of everything life has to offer because you are in a prison and don't know it. Being in bondage to your thoughts can be much worse than a physical disability.

* Please don't ask who said this. Just know that life is real and you have to deal with people who don't understand what you deal with.

Monday, May 15, 2017

Wisdom Is

Wisdom is keeping silent when everyone else is talking

Wisdom is putting water on the fire instead of gas

Wisdom is choosing words carefully
Wisdom is knowing which battles are worth fighting

Wisdom is watching
Wisdom is waiting
Wisdom is knowing when to let go so better things can happen

Choosing the path of wisdom isn't always easy, but you learn a lot. Sometimes I want to say something, but then I think, "It won't help anything, so it's better to stay quiet."

There is a time for everything. I choose to trust His plan, even when I don't know all the details.

Friday, April 07, 2017

The Lost Girl

Staring in the mirror, she didn't know herself. The spunk that set her apart from everyone else was replaced by a girl void of life. She was living and breathing, but she just existed. She wasn't experiencing life. 

She often closed the door to her room, drowning out the sounds of laughter and fun. "I just want quiet. I wish I was somewhere else. Anywhere but here, but where? Where can I go to escape myself?" she said.

Thoughts ran on a continuous loop in her head. She didn't want to think bad thoughts. She couldn't help it. Negativity swirled around her and threatened every relationship, like a venomous snake after its prey. 

Sleep was a distant memory. Hours lingered. The days seemed unbearable. How long must I be tormented? There has got to be more to life than this!

What happened to the positive, happy girl? She is in there somewhere! 

"I don't like this. I am hurting. I don't feel like doing ANYTHING!" she shouted. Then, she cried herself to sleep.

She was tired. Tired of things the way they were, but she didn't have the energy to change it, not right away. "Fight," others said. "I don't think you'll give up."

Sometimes she wanted to give up. That would be easy. That strength inside her was still there. She just had to make up her mind to do something. 

She realized she had spent too much time focusing on little things. She lost sight of the bigger picture. 

I want to encourage you. There is a greater plan unfolding. Just keep moving forward. Whatever you do, DON'T QUIT!

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

The Father's Heart

The Father's heart beckons
The Father's heart reaches
The Father's heart gives

The Father's heart loves without limits, without conditions
The Father's heart sees past flesh and bones
The Father's heart sees within

When will we grasp
When will see
The needs all around us?

When will we love without measure
Not capping off our quota of good deeds

When will we give all?
Will we ever?

Will you stop putting love in a box?

Can't you see love can't be contained
It's too big
It's meant to seep into the cracks

Love is meant to heal
Not seek its own right or its own way

We don't have the Father's heart because we don't know what love really is

It's not flowery words or grand gestures
Love is found in the quiet whispers, in unassuming places and people

Love was found in a manager
Love hung on the Cross
Love counted everything lost

Oh, that we would seek to be uncomfortable!
Oh, that we would stop doing the same things day after day

Open your eyes to the "little things"
The things you wouldn't normally give a second glance

Love is there.
We've just stopped looking for it.

In our quest for happiness, we have stopped celebrating love.

The Father's heart desires that His children will answer the call. 

"...Love one another. In the same way I loved you, you love one another. " (John 13:34)