Thursday, June 23, 2016

Freewriting Day 23: Anyone, Anywhere?

I wrote this a few days ago on a notepad, and I think the order of a few pages got a little jumbled. I finally just decided to post it anyway.

Is there anybody anywhere willing to say, "I am unashamed? 

For this cause I live
For this cause I die?"

Is there anybody anywhere who will stand for the truth?
Is there anybody anywhere who is tired of the status quo?

Is there anybody willing to say, "I'll be different"? 
I know my life is not my own. I know someone has to make that choice.

Does anyone else know?

Is there anyone willing to admit they have made mistakes?
Is there anyone willing to admit they have strayed from the straight and narrow path?

Is there anyone anywhere who will give up their position and title for the sake of a bigger purpose?
Is there anyone anywhere more concerned with where they stand with Him than the numbers in their bank account?

Is there anyone anywhere who cares?

Not spouting rhetoric or percentages 
Statistics or trends

Is there anyone anywhere who cares what the Father says?
We haven't bothered to ask Him because we don't really care
We'd rather fumble around in disbelief and remain ignorant than be made aware

Aware of all we haven't done
Of prayers we should have prayed
Of lives and families we could have impacted
If we hadn't looked the other way

We see our cold indifference staring us in the face
Hearts of stone replaced the heart of our youth
Before we became unwilling to change

Monday, June 20, 2016

Freewriting Day 22: In the Moment

Take in every moment. Soak up every second. Nothing is more beautiful than a child's heart. The innocence, the purity. It is soon lost.

I won't regret the time that I've spent
I won't take the back the words that's been said
The memories made, the love shared
Fills me up more than I dared to ask

A child's love is pure
It's untainted 
It's stronger than most things I've seen in life

It keeps giving no matter if you give back
It doesn't question
It is there

With open arms
With a longing to be shared
Between you 
Stop and listen if you dare

You don't need to be so busy
With the things of life
Emails can wait
Let the phone ring
Your child is there in front of you

But in the blink of an eye, that will change
One day you'll wonder where the time went
How did they go from a boy to man?

What were you doing?
Why didn't you see it?
Why couldn't you realize the precious thing you had?

Why didn't you make time?
Why did you ignore them?
Why did you give an endless stream of excuses?

None of that matters now
All the time wasted, all the memories that escaped

My children needed me
But I couldn't see what was in front of me

Friday, June 17, 2016

Freewriting Day 21: Why or Why Not?

Why do we dwell on the negative things?
Why do we hold it all in?
Each day is an opportunity to begin again

Why do we ponder the what ifs,
Letting the thoughts bounce around and take root in our head

Why do we allow worry to creep in,
Becoming a part of every conversation
I wonder if
I just don't know

Why can't we let go?
Why can't we trust?
Why can't we see through the fog that He is holding us?

He's never let us go
He's never let us fall
He won't start now

Why not smile?
Why not be happy?

Life is too short to be worried and full of fear
He said He's got you
Why can't you trust His plan for you?

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Freewriting Day 20: An Honest Prayer

I don't want to just say words

I don't want to go through the motions

I don't wanna ask what would Jesus do
And not change

I am not satisfied
I need more

More of You to fill the empty places
Put me on the Potter's wheel
Mold me, make me
Shape me, break me
Until I'm more like You

More like You

I want to be like You in my thoughts
I want to be like You with my words
I need more 
Ordinary's not enough

Pull me in closer
Let Your fire consume me
Take away everything that's not of You

I need more grace
I need patience
I need wisdom

I'm through goin' 'round in circles
I'm through straddling the fence
I've decided this is the dividing line

I don't care what others think
I need more

I'm dying of thirst
I'm dying the way I am 
God, save me
Save me from myself

I know I've said that before
But it's a continual process
I don't know everything
And I never will

I've accepted that
I'm not goin' back
I'm all in

I've got nothin' to lose
And everything to gain
Lord, take me deeper than I've ever been before

I'm tired of this place
Tired of being stagnant
Tired of standing still
I know there's more
I'm all in

No more holding back
No more questioning
I need You more than anything

You gave Your best
Over and over You laid down everything
You didn't care about comfort
You didn't care about fame
You didn't seek out praise or the accolades of man

You gave Your life 
So the least I can do is give You mine