The Illusion of Control
Control. It's something that keeps pulling us in a different direction. I struggle with letting go. I try to control people and situations, but it ALWAYS ends in bitter frustration. Do you want to know why? Because I can't control another person. I can't control circumstances, no matter how hard I try. I could say all the right things and do something with a pure motive and things still end in disaster. Some days I am fine letting go. My head doesn't spin. My heart doesn't race. I am just content to let things be. Content to not mess with the messiness of life. Other times I feel like I have my hand firmly on the reigns, only to realize I was grasping at air. It was all an illusion. Recently, I finished a book by Rebekkah Lyons called Freefall to Fly . I think that's why I try to control things. I am afraid of the freefall that will inevitably happen if I just let go. I am afraid to let the chips fall where they may. But, tonight, I've realized on a d