I'm here. I'm just getting ready for finals. I might be able to post on the weekend, but if not, definitely next Friday.
I also want to thank everyone for their words of encouragement. That means more than you'll ever know.
Have you ever had one of those days where you just question everything? That's where I'm at right now. I'm not sure exactly what I want to do, and I know everything will fall into place.
I'm just not satisfied with things right now. I've got that feeling of uneasiness and longing for things to be different. I long for the day when I can sit at school for more than a couple of classes. For most people, it's the opposite. They want to take the least amount of hours as possible. Not me. When you've had your whole "plan" turned upside down because of things beyond your control, the fear of the unknown rears its ugly head again.
Just because I fear something, doesn't mean I should let it stop me. I have to find a way (and I will) to overcome it. Typing or saying those words is easy but doing it is a whole other story.
I have to reach down deep inside of me to find that courage once again. That courage that doesn't let obstacles dictate its future. That courage that pushes past the pain even though it hurts.
Somewhere in the midst of my medical roller coaster I've lost that courage. I'm constantly asking my mom and myself ,"Why could I get back up from falling several times a day when I was younger without a tear, but now I cry about things?" Why is that? I'm often telling myself that I need to get back to my old self(not to relive the bad things) but to get back my courage. That tenacity that would conquer any "mountain" life throws at me. Those of you that were in my speech class will realize that reference.
I know I'm usually positive, but everyday isn't perfect. I'm not satisfied right now, but there's nothing I can do to change things except know within in my heart the "prize" that I'm going after. To not lose sight of the goals that I've set for myself. Right now, I'm having to wait, and I don't care how patient you are, waiting is HARD. I guess I'm on the right track. I'll just keep doing my PT and going to school.
I wanted to give everyone an update on the team teaching assignment that I talked about a few posts back.
My teacher decided that since there's only three group members, we only have to teach for 30 min. instead of 40 min. She wants the group with more people to have a little bit more time. Score!
She also said we have a week (now it's a couple of days since she said that) to prepare. I think my group let out a sigh of relief on that one. We got lots done on Thursday. We assigned tasks to everyone, came up with a "game" to illustrate our points, and figured out the main points we wanted to get across with our lesson.
Right now, I'm polishing up an outline for a research paper. It's my last major project before finals. I'm not completely satisfied with it, but are we ever?
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School is winding down. I'm a little stressed because I just found out my group has one week to put together a 40 minute team teaching lesson for a class. I don't think it will be a problem, but everyone has to do research. I'm going to talk to her tomorrow about some things that have been going on.
It's been a trying week for me physically. Spring break was a great time to rest. I'm just taking it one day at a time. I know that this semester is almost over, so I'm keeping this at the forefront of my mind. God never fails to give me the grace that I need to get through each day. Just when I think I can't sit up for another minute, let alone another hour, God lets me know that He hasn't went anywhere.
I'm going to take a break from the craziness of it all and watch what unfolds on American Idol tonight, how about you?
Easter morning has finally arrived. Amidst the chocolate bunnies, egg hunts, and family dinners lies the real reason for the celebration.
Jesus has risen! Even though my morning started off less than stellar, I've got a reason to rejoice this morning. My Lord and Savior endured agony just so I could be saved. I'm sure you've all heard the Easter story at some point in your life, so I won't go into all the details.
He proved everyone wrong when He rose from the grave. Those guards thought they were successful in killing Jesus Christ. WRONG. The tomb is a symbol of God leaving this world and going to Heaven to reign.
What so you like most about Easter? What's one thing that you're thankful for? I know you can think of at least one.
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I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. To my surprise, one of the nurse practitioners resigned. A kind woman with fiery red hair and a British accent told me that either my doctor would see me or "Susan"(Name has been changed to protect the innocent). As she was turning to leave she said, "Susan's" got a fire to her, I think you'll like her"
I thought, "Hmm, I don't know why she would have resigned." I was thinking, what will this new woman be like? Nice or demanding? Old or young?"
I was almost finished with my visit when "Susan" came into the room to introduce herself. Right away, she seemed warm and personable. One of the student anesthesiologists peeked his head into the room to ask me about a particular dose of one of my medications. Susan immediately began telling stories about patients she had met. She said, "I was making my rounds trying to meet all of my new patients. I asked one patient what medicines they were taking and they responded by saying, "Oh you know, the pink one! " She said, "No, I don't know what medicine you're talking about, I don't see what the medicines look like, I just prescribe them."
We all shared a laugh over that. At this point, I was tired, ready to make the long trip home. What I didn't realize was, that was going to be a while. You see, Susan was a talker. She proceeded to ask me what my major was and where I went to school. I responded as politely as possible after a two hour doctor's appointment. I also told her I want to minor in Spanish, but that's not possible at this point." She said, "Oh! Oh! being bilingual is SO good." She talked and talked and finally she said, "Sometimes I talk so much I have to stop myself." She could hardly get a breath in between sentences she talked so fast, but at least she was interested in getting to know me as a person and not just a chart number.
Finally, she ended the conversation, and we got out of there. It was a long day.
One of my friends died this morning. She tried to commit suicide a few years ago over a boy, but it didn't kill her. She's had lots of health issues since then. She was all twisted. She couldn't talk, just moan when she hurt. Her mom was committed to taking care of her, so much so that she quit her job when everything happened. She also has a little brother.
Please keep this family in your prayers. It's going to require a big adjustment for them to get used to her not being there.
I'm officially on Spring break! My plans are to rest and watch a little TV. I hardly ever watch TV because I don't have the time. I even took it out of my room for a while because I didn't watch it. Unfortunately, the TV became a welcome distraction while I was recovering from a surgery.
I haven't had the best morning. I woke up in a lot of pain, but I took my medicine. That helped take the edge off. It's nothing a beautiful Spring day can't cure!
What do you like to do on your day(s) off?
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I just got back from PT(physical therapy) so I''m pretty tired and sore. Please pray for the strength to study for my test. I'm a mixture of exhaustion and adrenaline because I there are a few loose ends I need to tie up. Then, I'll be on Spring break!
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