Written with Hope

This is an open letter to my Mama. I have some things I just need to say. Sometimes, I can't say things that I want to say without tears streaming down my face, so I'm going to express my thoughts through words today.


Dear Mama,


I want you to know that I haven't given up on walking again. I know at times progress is slow, but I'm doing it one step at a time.


Some days are long. When my hips ache at school, and most people would pick up the phone to go home, I stay. I don't stay to prove anything to anyone. I stay because there is something deep inside of me that motivates me to keep going.


Sometimes, I want to cry when I realize I can't do the simple physical therapy exercises at home. A few years ago they were a normal routine. Your gentle reminder that "You'll get there, Madison" means more than you'll ever know.


 You didn't give up on me when I was was fighting for my life in the NICU.


You didn't give up on me when I took longer than most people to recover from surgeries.


You didn't give up on me when I was bedridden with an infection and had to rely on you for even the simplest things.


I know that when I am able to walk again, you will be there supporting me just like you always have.


Love,


Me

Comments

Jillian said…
What a sweet post!! You made me cry!
3:02 PM
tam7777 said…
You are right I will never give up on you. God never gave up on me so I will never give up on you. We keep pushing forward just like we always have. There is a song that says "He's already provide," He's already provided. Every promise you can claim just ask it in His name. Everything you need He's Already Provided.
3:54 PM
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