Making my Mark

And the winner is...

2012-01-29T10:00:00.000-08:00

Thanks to everyone who entered the giveaway. Since I've been busy, I used random.org to determine the winner instead of cutting up little pieces of paper.

This means Debbie is the winner!! Congratulations, Debbie! I will be in touch with you shortly to tell you how to download your free software! Can't wait to see what you make!

As for the rest of you, don't forget you can still use my code STMMMS39106 anytime to get $10 off your purchase of My Memories Suite Scrapbook software and a $10 coupon for the MyMemories.com store. They have lots of great papers, cute tags, frames, etc. to make your pages come alive!

New Haircut!

2012-01-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

I got my hair cut yesterday and I just wanted to share it with everyone. My hair is thick, so it had gotten very heavy. I've always had okay haircuts, but never one I've really loved. That changed yesterday! I feel like a new person! I doubt my classmates will recognize me. :)

I took a picture to my hair stylist and she did an excellent job. I got 5 inches cut off.

This is a side view.

Hope everyone is having a great week! Don't forget to enter my giveaway!

MyMemories Software Giveaway!

2012-01-20T12:23:00.000-08:00

A few months ago, Liz Gardner contacted me about reviewing My Memories digital scrapbook software. Since I'm all about making and sharing memories, I jumped at the chance! This software comes pre-loaded with TONS of papers and embellishments! It is very easy to use!

I created a calendar for my Granny for Christmas, and it was a breeze to drag and drop the photos into place. I added frames and shadows around some of the pictures to make them pop. My grandmother is a simple lady, so I didn't add too many extras. For my next project, though, I will add lots of things! The possibilities are endless (recipe albums, photobooks, etc). You can also add music and narration to your pages for a complete package. I'm going to experiment with creating a DVD next. All you have to do is download a simple plugin.

If you don't have the My Memories Software, you can still use their awesome designs! Just select general files when downloading your papers and embellishments then play with them in Photoshop or whatever software you use. Here are a few of the pages I created for the calendar:

This is the front of the calendar created using paper, tags, and embellishments in the My Memories software.

Liz has been generous enough to offer one of you a chance to win a copy of My Memories digital scrapbooking software!!

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Winner will be announced on Friday, January 27th!

As a special for all of my readers, they have given me a code that provides a $10 discount off the purchase of the My Memories Suite Scrapbook software and a $10 coupon for the MyMemories.com store - $20 value!)

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Disclosure statement: I was provided one copy of the MyMemories digital software to review and one to give away.

No More Excuses!

2012-01-16T15:07:00.000-08:00

For me, this month started off with a bang! I purposed in my heart a long time ago to do all that God had for me no matter my circumstances. Believe me, the circumstances of life have not always been in my favor. Countless surgeries, physical pain, and much more have tried to hinder me from doing what God has called me to do. Even on the days when excuses could roll off my tongue with ease, I'm reminded of my commitment to God.

That simple choice has led me to where I am now. I'm doing more than ever thought possible a few years ago. For example, I'm continuing to write articles for church magazine, transcribe sermons into books, all while maintaining my courses in communication at college. It's in His strength and grace that I'm able to do all these things. What excuses have you let creep into your life? Whether you realize it or not, these excuses slowly eat away at the passion you once had for life. You may have been a vibrant person, and after you let the weight and cares of this life weigh you down, your friends and family may not even recognize the depressed person you've become.

It's not too late to make a change, though! Humble yourself before God and ask him to let his thoughts about you be your thoughts about yourself. When you start to see yourself as God sees you, you will realize his grace has always been there. You just have to reach out and grab it! After you recommit yourself to God, do something! You've heard it said time and time again that actions speak louder than words. If your passion is children, go where they are. Spend time teaching them how to read through the school system. You'll be surprised at the opportunities that will come your way as a result of your decision to quit making excuses!

Free Books for Kindle!

2012-01-04T20:01:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to share a great resource I found with all of my friends who might have a Kindle. It's called Pixel of Ink. They send out daily emails with several free e-books. Not all of them are free, so make sure it says $0.00 before you click buy. :)

I downloaded two completely free books this afternoon, The Fence my Father Built by Linda S. Clare and Caged: Memoirs of a Cage-Fighting Poet by Cameron Conway. I'm excited to read these when I have time because I've never read any of their books.A new book to read is great. A new FREE book is even better!

If you go to this link, they do have some free books for the Nook as well.

Happy reading, everyone!

New Things on the Horizon

2012-01-02T19:57:00.000-08:00

I'm excited to share with everyone that I'm the newest intern at Athena Magazine for Girls! This magazine was founded in 2007 and seeks to inspire young women around the world through articles about current events, music, clothing, etc. the internship is fully online, which is a blessing to me.

I will be the current events writer in a team of talented and creative women. Over the next few months. I know I will be challenged, but I'm excited for what's ahead!

Click this link to subscribe to the magazine. It's free! We are in the process of planning the February issue, so be sure to tell all your friends, nieces, and young women in your life.

Sweet Monkey Frozen Yogurt

2011-12-31T19:23:00.000-08:00

My mom and I took a trip to Sweet Monkey, a delicious frozen yogurt place in Gainesville. It was nice because my mom doesn't have too many days off.

This was their cute logo on the back wall. They had a few couches and chairs that beckoned us to relax and stay awhile.

This was the self-serve stations that housed flavors like tiramisu, eggnog, peanut butter, red velvet cake, and espresso.

Fruit toppings abounded! I can't wait to go back in a few months to try the mango or peach yogurt with some fruit!

They had lots of candy options to top off the yogurt, but I preferred the salty nuts like pecans and cashews. The best part is Sweet Mokney is coming to Athens and Augusta soon! At least I'll have something to make my routine doctor appointments a little more enjoyable!

Cozy Christmas

2011-12-29T16:13:00.000-08:00

My Christmas was wonderful. While the presents were nice, I loved spending time with my family the most. I've spent my days lounging around reading books on my new Kindle Fire. If any of you have any good book suggestions, please let me know. I love a good book! I also helped put together my first Christmas drama for my church with some very talented friends of mine. It was quite an undertaking, but so worth it.

Our family tree this year

Me and Mason hanging out on Christmas Eve

My break is coming to a close, but I have so enjoyed not having any homework or assignments! I have several blog posts planned, I just haven't felt well. I love to write, though, so I am making myself do a blog post. :)

True Success

2011-12-20T14:12:00.000-08:00

Even though I'm not graduating from college just yet, people are asking, "What are you planning on doing?" "You need to go get a master's now so you won't loose the rhythm you're in now..." The short answer is get a job. Just because I have a few limitations doesn't mean I can't be a productive member of society. It just takes me a little longer to do some things.

Success for me is not measured in dollars and cents or degrees. To me, success is waking up every morning with a sense of purpose. I'm here on this earth for so much more than to just do a job. I'm supposed to spread God's love wherever I go, which is why I can be content not pursuing a master's degree right now. If I'm so busy filling my schedule with lots of "stuff", I may miss an opportunity to spread God's love to someone in the workplace. In short, my life isn't about doing something just because someone else thinks it's a good idea. I'm more committed to God than I've ever been. Yes, I will continue to write. That's part of the talent God has blessed me with, and I'm determined not to waste it!

I'm looking into some online options for master's degree, but I'm in no hurry to do anything. I want to be doing what God wants me to do where He wants me to do it. I've been spending a lot of time praying and listening to His voice, because I know I am nothing without Him.

I just wanted to write this post to let everyone know they don't have to be pressured by people. Let God direct you. He has never let me down yet, even when I was confused and doubting the dream I had in my heart.

Best Birthday Gift Ever!

2011-12-19T07:03:00.000-08:00

My mom gave me the most awesome gift for my 22nd birthday a few weeks ago: A 30 minute massage! I had never had a massage, but I know how much it helped my mom when her back was hurting. As it got closer to my appointment with Kayla from Absolute Muscular Care in my hometown, I became more and more excited because I'd I had almost forgotten what it was like to live without neck pain! My neck had been hurting for months with no relief. I couldn't even sleep good at night because of it. After visiting Kayla, I have noticed a TREMENDOUS difference! I have slept better ever since my visit!

I didn't have the typical massage, though. I had something called the CranioSacral massage that is designed to help migranes, fibromyalgia, and even childhood disorders like cerebral palsy! Click this link to learn more about it. I couldn't believe there was a massage designed just for me!

Anyway, I just had to share this with everyone. Kayla didn't not ask me to write a review. I just believe in sharing good stuff! If you live in my hometown, I highly recommend her!

Book Review: Sunrise on the Battery by Beth Hart

2011-12-15T18:45:00.000-08:00

Sunrise on the Battery is a story by Beth Webb Hart. The main characters are Mary Lynn and Jackson Scoville, a couple who started with nothing and trying to work their way up through the elite Charleston society. In the midst of all of this, she found herself wishing she could go to church with her three daughters and husband. She struggles to find a balance to it all, though. This story is a captivating tale of the Scoville family as they all try to live a perfect life. For Mary Lynn, that means trading in her small-town roots for high-class tea parties. For Jackson, it means making sure his daughters had ever have every opportunity that he never had growing up .

I really liked this story because it was relatable. Families get so caught up in doing lots of stuff that they often miss what's truly important in life. I thought Hart did a great job developing Jackson's character. His disgust about anything relating to God reminds me people in my life. The sweet innocence of the youngest daughter was refreshing in this story because it provided a nice balance to his teenage issues that Catherine faced. I loved all the flashback she included to about small-town life before moving to Charleston because they added more depth to the characters and story as a whole. I would recommend this story to anyone looking for a new book to read! It's raw and real. The message still lingers in my mind even though I'm done with it .

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What a Difference a Year Makes!

2011-12-07T08:56:00.001-08:00

Finals are over and I'm off for a month! I've learned a lot this semester. In my creative writing class, my final project was the beginning of a novel. I turned in 33 pages, and I'm quite proud of myself because this is the longest work on one subject that I've ever done! I plan to continue working on it. One thing people may not realize is it takes a lot of time and patience to to tell a story in right way.In other words, not rushing from point to point, but really taking your time to develop the characters and setting.

I've been sick. Instead of focusing on the negative, I want to write a list of things that I can do now that I couldn't do a year ago.

I helped my mom decorate the Christmas tree this year
I was able to attend college classes from 8 to 2 on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays
I started helping on my church's publication team, which meets weekly
As of Saturday, I am now able to transfer myself for my wheelchair to the recliner with no help
I can pick up my baby cousin without hurting my back
I can put on my stretchy pants on with no help (Blue jeans still require help, but I will master that eventually)
I can pop a wheelie in my wheelchair
I learned how to use Adobe Illustrator
I designed a logo using Adobe Illustrator
I'm able to sit up more, which is why so many things on this list are possible
As an extra special surprise, I'm coming back to church on Wednesday nights starting TONIGHT! I have not been able to go church on Wednesday nights in several years because of my pain. All praise goes to God for His neverending grace!!

I'm not where I want to be, but I'm not where I was! I wanted to write these things down so I won't forget how far I've come.

What I've been doing

2011-11-29T09:02:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving was wonderful. We got the awesome opportunity to serve people in our community. Below is just some of the desserts that people made!

Later on that week. I went to visit my Memaw. I cuddled my little nephew, who is now six months old. He is learning so much!

I've also been designing some things for my adobe illustrator class Here are two of the projects I've been working on. A logo for the outreach ministry of our church and something fun that I may use as a desktop background. I'm also working on a poster, but it's not done.

I'll be done with this semester next Tuesday. I can't wait!

Sniffles and Helping Others

2011-11-18T07:04:00.001-08:00

So, I've been sick the past few days. I hardly ever get sick and can count on one hand how many times I've had to go to the doctor this year for sickness. I was having chills all day yesterday and some other not so fun stuff, so I made a trip to the doctor. He automatically wanted to test me for strep, since it's apparently been going around. After gagging me with that cotton swab, the test came back negative. Thankfully, I was able to finish my take home test on time. I've started on some meds, so I should be better by next week. Now is not the time to be sick!

It's a good thing, too because I have a lot to do. Between working on things for my church, I am finishing up my last few assignments before finals. I will also be helping my church serve a free Thanksgiving lunch on Thanksgiving day to the community. Local firefighters, elderly people, and even friends of mine will be coming. This is a huge undertaking, but everything is going along smoothly. I can't wait to see the smiles on people's faces as they get some good food in their stomachs and surrounded by laughter and good conversation. I have always enjoyed helping other people and that is something I hope to pass on to my nephew Mason when he's older.

Knit with Love

2011-11-15T09:40:00.001-08:00

The weather is turning chilly, but that's no excuse for not being fashionable! My aunt is selling the scarves she has made.

How great would this look over your favorite sweater or new winter coat?

She doesn't have an Etsy page, but email her at gwenshiflet@hartcom.net if interested! (Hint: to all you locals who live near me!) Make sure to put Scarves as the subject line so she will know. She will be making more, so I will be adding pictures. These would make excellent Christmas gifts and don't forget birthdays!

Little Victories

2011-11-14T06:05:00.001-08:00

My blond headed little cousin, Keller, came walking into my room on Friday like he always does. Pointing to my laptop, I knew he wanted to watch Giggle Bellies. Giggle Bellies is a fun, educational DVD of many songs for kids. It's also on YouTube. I play some for him, and he LOVES them! His favorites are "Wheels on the Bus" and Old MacDonald Had a Farm. They have the cutest characters and music!

There he was, by my bed. The only problem was there was no one there to lift him up. I haven't lifted a child at all since my back surgery almost four years ago. I couldn't let him just stand there, so I lifted him. I couldn't quite get him up high enough. Setting him back on the ground, I tried again. Still not quite good enough. I knew I could do if I tried hard enough. So, I took a deep breath while leaning just a little bit over my bed. I'm thankful for my long arms during times like these. :)

Next, something unexpected happened. Keller started helping me! He tried to put his feet on the rail of my bed. That gave me just the push I needed to get him on my bed. Finally, he was on the bed and ready for Giggle Bellies (or so I thought).

He kept trying to climb over me. I couldn't figure out what he wanted beside me. Finally, my mom came in my room and said, "He's wanting to lay beside you like he's done before." So, THAT'S what he wanted! Laying his little head on my pillow, I hit play on the video. You would have thought he was in heaven! I was too! I was so proud of myself for being able to lift him without hurting him or myself! Sometimes I forget to share the little victories I have on here. I am making an effort to get better about that, starting today!

Content but not Satisfied

2011-11-11T06:58:00.001-08:00

Lots of things have been happening this week! I am ahead on all of my classwork, which is wonderful! The big news is that I applied for an internship and looking ahead at other opportunities. It's unreal how quickly time passes! I remember when I was very concerned because I still had lots of classes in red, which means I still had to take them. In time, everything has worked out, though. I'm just trying to enjoy the time I have left at college.

One thing I have learned is that you are always entering and leaving phases in life. I left high school and entered college. Just when things become familiar, they change. I guess that's good thing, though because that means I'm constantly growing as a person. In my opinion, there is nothing worse than someone who has become stagnant. In other words, they have become satisfied with where they're at. This is completely different than content, mind you. Yes, I know most dictionaries will say they technically mean the same thing, but I'm talking about the heart of the matter. I'm not talking about a surface level happiness or satisfaction. Satisfied people feel as if they have no where else to go in life. No more goals to reach. They are fine to just be. Content people are fulfilled, trusting that everything will work out, even in the midst of chaotic circumstances. Content people still have dreams. Satisfied people have quit dreaming. That's the way I see it anyway.

I always want to expand my horizons and dream big no matter what limits society or others try to put on me. Have you become satisfied?

Still Going Strong

2011-11-04T19:57:00.000-07:00

Well, another week has come and gone. If you're a fan of my facebook page, you will know that I have been extremely busy with school. I'm so glad it's the weekend because I haven't felt the best. Even this morning, I could have easily stayed home from school because I was feeling nauseous. I went on anyway because I know that each hour I'm there means I'm one step closer to graduating. I also know I can't learn anything at home.

I'm still recuperating from the costume party because I was up pretty much ALL day, including school for several hours. But, I'm moving along. I can't stay down long. I guess I'm just writing to get this out. I have been kind of down.

After spending time in prayer and worship tonight in my room, I feel a lot better. I didn't even have any music. It was just me telling Jesus how much I love Him and how thankful I am He has never deserted me even when I am snappy and tired. There's nothing like the presence of Jesus. He is my rock.

Fall Costume Party

2011-11-01T09:51:00.000-07:00

I went to a costume party with my mom last night at our church. It was a great time of food, fun, and fellowship with some awesome people. I laughed so much that my stomach hurt! I needed that.

I went dressed as a Japanese geisha using a dress that my mom's boss got in Japan or some other country. I can't remember now. I layered it over black pants and dyed my hair black (with hair dye that washes out). Even some of my closest friends and family didn't recognize me! I laughed and laughed.

I was in the presence of an awesome egg and smiley face. They are doing their best Thriller Remix.

My mom was laughing at them. :D

My aunt and uncle were bacon and egg

.Miss Ruby was a diva! She had no problem posing for the camera. There were many other costumes, but I can't post them all. It was fun being someone totally different for a night, especially with the black hair, but I'm ready to get my brown hair back. I just have to wash it a few times! The most surprising thing of the night is that I won the overall best costume. I was shocked!

Wrapped in His Arms

2011-10-28T17:49:00.000-07:00

Most children look to their daddies to be their helpers:to fix everything for them when they're too little to do it themselves. "Mytoy is broken, daddy. Can you fix it for me?" a child says with pleadingeyes.

My story is a little different. I had a broken heart thatcouldn't be easily fixed with tape or new batteries. I would have givenanything for a dad who wanted to spend time with me when I was little. I usedto be so sad when a movie would show a little girl climbing up in her daddy'slap because that was something I never experienced.
I never felt safe around my daddy growing up. He was talland had a booming voice that made me jump when he entered the room. I couldn'tjust go up to him and say, "Daddy, I need a hug," because he wasoften too busy doing his own thing. After a while, I just quit waiting for himto play with me because the sting of rejection was too much for my little heartto take.

When I came to Gateway Believers Fellowship, I was just a young girl stilltrying to get used to my parents’ divorce. I remember hearing sermons about theFather's love. It was unlike anything I'd ever heard of before. Apostle Davidwould explain that God loves each one of us unconditionally. I desperatelywanted to believe that, but I had been so disappointed many times before in mylife, and I needed help believing even that. Thank God that Holy Ghost is myhelper! As I learned to pray in tongues for my own growth and edification, myHelper showed up to fix my broken heart.

After being able to grasp that God really wanted arelationship with me, scars and all, I began to let Holy Ghost heal my heartlittle by little. It started with praying in tongues and meditating on thewords of the songs each time we worshipped in church. I would find myself humming the words duringthe week when I was alone. Holy Ghost would take those words and help me seehow they applied to ME personally.

It wasn’t always easy, but over time, Holy Ghost helpedme see that it didn't matter if my daddy ever told me that he loved me or not.God’s love became real to me, and I knew that HE cared for me. Throughsurgeries, falls, and awards ceremonies at school, Holy Ghost has helped me getthrough it all, letting me know and experience His love. He was there to helpme let down the walls that I put up to keep others out, and through that Ibegan to experience God’s love through those around me as well. I have foundthat I don’t have to do anything to impress God; I don’t have to be perfect. Hejust loves me for me. How awesome is that?!

You may think that you are too broken, too messed up, ortoo shameful for God to ever love you. That's not the case, my friend. Once Ilet Holy Ghost help me experience God’s love, my life has never been the same.As I fully submitted to God, trusting Him to be the father I never had, He hasgiven me an unspeakable peace concerning my daddy. God’s Holy Spirit has helpedmend that void in my life, and He can do the same for you.

I dare you to believe Holy Ghost to be your Helper. He isall that you need! See what happens!

Making my Mark: Never Too Late

2011-10-27T16:28:00.000-07:00

Some say you can't make your mark when your older

You've waited too late to do anything worthwhile
Why even try?
The world is moving at a rapid pace, people will give you the cold shoulder

Don't listen to them
Turn away from their shouts of doubt
You can make a difference
One word is all it takes

Give it a try
An act of kindness
A word of encouragement to let someone know you care
Is enough to pull them from the pit of despair

It's never too late to make a change
Even if you're old and gray
Just make a choice to get beyond your comfort zone
Great things can happen when you venture into the unknown!

Page by Page

2011-10-26T16:36:00.000-07:00

I've been busy working on my novel for my creative writing class. I have thirteen pages as of right now. I've committed to having at least thirty pages done by December. One thing I have learned is that it sure is tough writing from the perspective of mother, especially since I'm not one. Tears threatened to spill over onto the keyboard this morning as I finished up the fourth chapter. So, I'm taking a break for a few days and look at it again with fresh eyes.

I have so much that I want to say that I'm afraid it's going to end up being well over thirty pages, but I guess that's why they call it an ongoing project .I plan on continuing even after this course is done because the characters and situation mean something to me. I don't want to just tell a story. I want to tell it well. What's your favorite kind of novel? Is it suspense? A thriller? A romance? Tell me in the comments!

P.S. If you are not a fan of my Facebook page, click the Like button on my left sidebar. I want to make it to 100 before the end of the year! Come on and make your mark with me!

Sweet Skylie

2011-10-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

I had a tiny visitor on Tuesday. A seven pound visitor named Skylie to be exact. She's my neighbor who was born at 25 weeks weighing a mere 1 lb, 2 oz at birth.

After a few months in the NICU, she's doing well at home on oxygen thanks to the prayers of many people who continue to pray for her and her family who have been through other very trying struggles.

She was right at home in my arm, gradually dozing off to dream land. With each flutter of her eyelashes and movement of her tiny hands, I was reminded again at what a miracle life is. I guess good things really do come in small packages!

Alone and Frustrated

2011-10-17T06:11:00.000-07:00

As I was going into class on Friday, I noticed someone leaning against the wall. Getting closer to the door, he briefly glanced up in the midst of his frustration. I wanted to speak to him, but I had to get to class. I couldn't help but wonder what made him get off by himself in a corner.

I looked back and noticed he had resumed the same position as before, leaning into the wall with his head in his hands. I wondered how many other people had passed him by without a second thought? His face still lingers in my mind today, void of all hope. That's not a good place to be, my friends.

How many of us have been in that same situation? Feeling miserable about life and the world in general. How many have rushed by someone in need, not bothering to care? I know the power of words. They have the power to heal. Even a smile can make a world of difference for someone.

I don't know if that guy has a relationship with God. I don't even know if he has anyone in his life to encourage him and tell him things will get better, even if it doesn't seem that way right now. I'm so thankful that I'm surrounded by people who love me enough to encourage me on the hard days and not turn a blind eye.

Find someone to encourage today. I guarantee you'll find someone if you take the time.

P.S. I would like to get to 100 facebook fans before the end of the year. Just click the like button on my left sidebar!

Busy as a Bee

2011-10-06T15:25:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone. I wanted to offer an explanation as to why I haven't blogged. I have been SWAMPED with school work and other things that require my time and energy. One of those things is the beginning of a novel for my creative writing class. It's coming along page by page. I've also been in a significant amount of pain these past few weeks, but I'm trudging along.

I'm having some issues with my wheelchair cushion, so be in agreement with me that the problem will be resolved quickly.

Hope everyone is having a good week! Tomorrow is Friday! :)

Missing my Granddaddy

2011-09-30T06:15:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting in the computer lab thinking about my granddaddy. It's been two months since he died, and I still miss him.

Today I'm thinking about him as I prepare to take a quiz in history. He always loved watching shows about how things were made. "What are you learning about now, Madison?" he'd ask enthusiastically as he leaned up in his chair to hear me better. We'd talk a lot about what I was learning. I loved those times because he'd get the biggest grin on his face.

I think about him at night, missing his random phone calls to ask me about my day.

I think about him when Mason comes over, knowing he would be laughing at how big he's gotten.

I can still hear him saying, "How's my sweet granddaughter doing today?" in a gruffly voice.

Every night as I wash my face before bed, I remember all the times he used to hold the wash cloth under the sink for a few extra seconds, making sure it was good and warm for me. I always hold the wash cloth to my face a few extra seconds now, thinking of my granddaddy.

Even though I can't share these things with him today, I know he's in a much better place. He may be doing a jig up in Heaven right now. :)

Significance of September 23

2011-09-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up and got ready for school. I sat in Bible class talking about things that we would have gotten to experience with Jesus if we were alive during his lifetime. I didn't really think much of today until I wrote the date on my paper. September 23, 2011.

That date probably doesn't mean anything to you, but it was the day of my second surgery, which was exactly seven years ago. I still remember that day vividly. I was fourteen years old. My new doctor informed me that if we didn't take the hardware in my hips out, one fall could cause me to need a hip replacement. I had no idea that every fall that I had taken since the hardware had been in my body could have been a disaster.

My family woke up when it was still pitch dark outside. Today was the day my hip was going to get straightened (again), and I wouldn't have to worry about airport scanners going off. Now, you have to understand that I had never been to an airport, but I always try to find the humor in things.

I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and made myself presentable. From the moment I woke up, September 23 was not a normal day. I even left the house in my soft blue pajama pants and my hair in a ponytail.

"Well, I get to go to sleep for a few hours, so I guess getting up at around 4 o' clock in the morning isn't so bad." I joked with my mom.

When we got to the hospital, we got checked in and get me prepped and ready for surgery. Family was bustling around trying to contain their nerves. My doctor came in to go over everything, and chat a little. He was an old man with a kind and gentle face never failing to put me at ease with a gentle pat on my arm.

It was almost time. I watched the clock tick away the minutes on the wall. The minutes seemed to creep by so slow, so I passed the time by talking with my brother. Tick, tock. Tick, tock. The rhythm of the clock on the wall almost lulled me to sleep. Then, I remembered September 23 was a different kind of day as nurses shuffled in and out of my little corner.

One of the last things I remember was being wheeled to the operating room. The hallway was long, and no one was around. I was just focusing on staying calm and remembering that I wasn't alone.

Just then, Dr. Griffin, peeked his out of the OR. "Are you ready to do this?" he asked with a smile.

"Yep," I replied. If you were there, you would have thought I was having a casual conversation with my grandpa, not my surgeon.

I had developed quite a relationship with Dr. Griffin over the past six years. I was a nervous eleven year old with a knee popped out of place. I was answering all of his questions, when suddenly, he popped it back in. "Ow!" I yelped, half from pain and half from suprise. That's when I knew that Dr. Griffin was different. He had a gentleness about him that most doctors lack.

So, when he asked me if I was ready, I responded without hesitation because I knew him. I trusted him.

"Well, let's get you fixed then!" he replied confidently.

The operating table was cold and hard. "Get her a warm blanket," Dr Griffin said to one of the nurses. I felt like a child being tucked into sleep. For the next several hours, I drifted off to sleepy land.

September 23, 2004 was indeed a different day.

Breaking the Silence

2011-09-22T06:35:00.000-07:00

These past weeks have been rough emotionally. I usually don't write about this kind of stuff here, but I thought it may help someone. Let me just say this before I go any farther. People have this idea that admitting they have hard days is a sign of weakness. That is a sign you are human!

I have just been in a slump where my personal writing is concerned. Satan comes to all of us telling us lies, and he has been talking to me a lot lately. For instance, he has been telling me that I don't have anything of value to say. This blog doesn't matter. You know how it is. He bombards your mind with lies so you will be quiet.

Needless to say, it has affected me. I'm guilty of letting Satan slip in and silence me. I've found myself feeling down about things, but that is changing now. When I realized what had happened, I immediately opened up a post and started to write. Instead of being quiet, I'm going to continue writing. I'm going to continue sharing what God does for me.

In the Quiet Time

2011-09-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

This is a poem I wrote during my church's seeking time. It's a time we set aside to pray and seek God with other believers.

Inthe quiet time, I sit alone;

Thefamiliar whirring of the computer is all I hear.
I amalone with my thoughts, or so it seems.
Ifeel a tugging in my heart; He is calling me.

Inthe quiet time, God speaks.

I amable to listen, soaking in His awesome presence
I amonly one person, yet the Alpha and Omega talks with me.

Inthe quiet time, I am reassured.

Hegives me a clearer vision of the path I’m on.
As Isee more, I’m overcome with peace.
JehovahJireh is all I need.

Inthe quiet time, I realize even more it’s not about me.

Thereare people wandering in darkness, unable to see.
Godnudges me to pray for them.
Isay, “Lord, let Your light shine through the shadows that hide their destiny.”
Istand in awe of The Great I Am because He continually uses me.

Name that Photo Contest!

2011-09-13T15:35:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days since I've posted. I've been super busy with papers and projects for school! I have a test in History tomorrow, but I couldn't resist sharing a cute photo my mom took of my nephew today. He is 4 months old today! He is the happiest baby and I'm so glad I get the chance to love on him!

This photo is just begging for a caption, don't you think? So c'mon! Give it your best shot! I will pick a winner and they will get a book from me. :)

Making my Mark: Voice Among Chaos

2011-09-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

Awhile back, someone came to my blog searching for poems about making their mark. I thought that was a fantastic idea, so here is my first one. I may make this a series. Who knows? :)

When I was a girl, I struggled to know what my place was in this big world

I got more questions than answers; my head felt as if it would twirl

What could I do, what could I say

That would leave a mark on the world to stay?

As I got older, I found my way

It was full of twists and turns and even a few stumbles

The good thing was I had found my voice

I didn't even mumble!

I didn't shout nor did I scream

I just did what came naturally

I looked for ways to help those in need

My oh my, how their faces beamed!

So whether you are young or old

Don't tuck this poem away in an old dusty drawer

Let it touch you to the very core

Get our your pen or use your voice. It doesn't matter just be bold!

Thanks for Visiting!

2011-09-06T11:42:00.000-07:00

Since I have had some new visitors in the past few weeks, I wanted to take this time to welcome them. I'm so glad you decided to stop by my little corner on the Internet! Feel free to look through some of my old posts. In case you don't know, you can subscribe to my post by typing in your email address into the subscribe box on my right sidebar. This ensures you never miss a post! :)

I also have a FacebOok page this blog. Click here to visit my page. I will share things about my day, upcoming blog posts, and ask questions. Basically, it's a community for all who love Making my Mark. I would love to see you over there as well!

Hope everyone had a fabulous Labor Day weekend! I caught up on some much needed sleep and went to Olive Garden with my mama.

The Best Day of Your Life

2011-09-05T04:00:00.000-07:00

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I’m going to celebrate!

Today, I’m going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far:
the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.

I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart. I will marvel at God’s seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds.

Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.

Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I’ll make someone smile. I’ll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don’t even know.

Today, I’ll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I’ll tell a child how special he is, and I’ll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.

Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don’t have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I’ll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.

Tonight, before I go to bed, I’ll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.

As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank Him for the best day of my life.And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be…..the best day of my life!

~Author Unkown

I found this awhile back because it echoes the thoughts of my heart so perfectly, it seems like I could have written it myself. I never want to forget that this life is a gift!

If They Only Knew

2011-09-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

Note: I actually wrote this months ago, but debated about posting it. I hope it helps someone else.

Tears streamed down her face as she thought of what just happened.

In trying to be a good friend, she got burned. Her heart was breaking because there was nothing left to do. Her help wasn't wanted, so she was no longer going to be there.

Matthew 5:38-40 says, "You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth. But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well."

In other words, you are supposed to turn the other cheek and forgive them. I don't know about you, but that is hard for me because I have to be willing to be hurt again.

It hurts to be misunderstood. It is a pain of knowing that the person that needs help is within arm's reach yet you can't get to them. They are blinded by voices of doubt and fear. Unfortunately, I can only be pulled so much. As hard as it will be, I have to let this person go their own way. I've walked my walk, and now they have to walk theirs. I will still be praying for this person, but they have made a choice. I'm not someone who will overstep my bounds.

In my haze of confusion, I know that God is still God. Just like the father waiting on the prodigal son, I'll be here waiting when they are ready. Relationships are hard and require comprise, patience, and understanding. If they could only see things from my perspective, it would be different.

The Celebration

2011-09-02T04:00:00.000-07:00

I haven't officially announced that I'm writing for my church's weekly publication called The Celebration, so I wanted to take time to do that. We have a team that puts together The Celebration for our church and whomever else may want one. What you may be interested in is The Celebration blog.

The Celebration blog features things that the team members have written, including myself. It's a good place to stop by for encouragement, challenge your thinking, and a laugh or two.

Bridging the Gap

2011-08-30T15:23:00.001-07:00

Pre-mature birth. Cerebral Palsy. Surgeries. Therapy. Wheelchair.

If I can help just one person by sharing with them how I’ve overcome seemingly insurmountable odds in my life, it will be worth it all. If I can offer just one word of encouragement to a parent of a special needs child, the pain I’ve endured is still worth it all. My earthly father has never accepted me as I am, but showing others how much my Heavenly Father genuinely loves me makes it worth it all.

You know, a lot of Christians wait until they’ve gotten things all figured out before they start trying to reach out to others. I may be young, but I have learned that we all face hard times on this journey called life, and it’s how we react to them that makes all the difference. I decided that I wasn’t going to wait until my healing totally manifested or things seem to be easier for me before I try to help bridge the gap for others. True, I have felt like an outsider more times than I’d care to admit. However, through much prayer and earnestly seeking to know God on a more intimate level, I have achieved a level of breakthrough in many areas. I have learned how to have a hope that never fades under any circumstances, and I have learned that it’s very important to share that hope with others.

Think about Queen Esther in the Old Testament. Here she was, an orphaned Jewish girl who found favor with the King. She didn’t do anything to deserve that favor; God took her circumstances and orchestrated it all so that she would be in position to bridge the gap for others. When she was promoted to the palace, she could have sat idly by in luxury with her servants and forgotten about her people, but she didn’t. When the hour of need arose, she recognized that it was God who placed her there in order to help her people, not just to live a life of ease for herself. She knew the risks of her actions; she knew she might die along with the rest, but she stepped out boldly and spoke up anyway. It took great courage, but God used Esther’s voice to bring deliverance for others.

With Biblical examples like Esther in mind, I began looking for ways to help other people break through difficult circumstances in their lives. A few years ago, I started writing a blog and, through that, have been able to give hope to hundreds of people a day just by releasing the words God has put inside of me. I don’t write only for people with disabilities; I write to share my experiences about learning how to trust God. Even though my life isn’t being threatened for proclaiming God’s goodness and truth, I have come to realize that if I don’t release what God has given me, my gift will die. Trust me, I had to die to myself quite a bit when I started openly sharing about my life. There were nights that I would cry because it hurt my flesh to have to relive many of the pains and hurts that I have faced. But as I obeyed God, people responded in positive ways. Knowing that I was helping others has given me the courage and strength to keep on.

Like Esther, when we surrender our plans and desires, great things can happen because God is able to accomplish what He wants done. By putting God’s wishes above our own desires, we can give hope to the hurting, which is more valuable than gold or fame or position. When we use the gifts God has given us to share our own breakthroughs, our own sense of purpose is strengthened.

What can you do to bridge the gap for others?

The Cutest Little Baby Face

2011-08-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated everyone on my nephew, so I plan to fix that today. Mason is 3 months old and getting bigger everyday! He is such a joy to be around. I thought I would share a few of my favorite pictures that my mom has taken over the past few months.

I don't know what he was thinking about after his bath, but he sure looked cute!

Jesus: The Awesome Example

2011-08-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

The more I look at life, the more I stand in awe of God. People always say to me, "You have such a gift with writing!" I'm humbled each and every time I hear it because I know I'm nothing without God. He is the reason I'm alive. Don't believe me? Read this post. Without him, I wouldn't have the breath of life. I'm so grateful for the mercy He gives me each day. I have done absolutely nothing to deserve Him and His awesome presence and guidance. I am made worthy through His blood.

The fact that Jesus died for me...and all of humanity still leaves me speechless sometimes. I don't know about you, but I don't know many people who would die for complete strangers. Let's face it, even if they would, they wouldn't choose to be crucified and beaten beyond comprehension.

His life inspires me each day. Jesus only lived for 30 years here on Earth, yet He performed notable miracles and touched more people during one sermon than any of us would ever touch in a lifetime. He lived with such passion! Where are the passionate people today? Why are most people content to just get by? In other words, why do most people settle for a job they like instead of one they love? In my opinion, you only have one life to live, so live it to the fullest! Go out on the edge of your comfort zone and see what you find. Do something different. Live differently. Love differently.

As I write this, I'm talking to myself, too. I'm human just like everyone else. Sometimes I let little things bother me. I get tired. Sometimes I forget to reach for things that seem unreachable, not even aware that I've let other people dictate how I feel, what I should do(or not do), etc. I said all that to say that I can't live differently or love others like Christ loved them on my own. I have to have His help.

I just wanted to write this as a reminder of the awesome example that we have. Jesus Christ. Philippians 4:13 reminds me "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. " In Him I can do all things, not because I'm able in this pile of human flesh, but because of His grace that He so freely gives.

So, what is holding you back from being an example? Draw on His grace!

Sunshiny Semester

2011-08-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

I've just finished my first class of the new semester. 7:00 sure did come early this morning after a three month break! The sun was shining as my mom and I left for school this morning. It's a new day filled with possibilities. I'm excited to start learning new things. I'm still a junior, although I previously said I would be a senior. It's just because I can't sit long enough at school to have 17 or 18 hours worth of credit each semester, but I am getting it done.

*I know sunshiny isn't an actual word, but it reminded me of that song "I Can See Clearly Now" and the lyrics that say, "It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day!"

Just wanted to check in with everyone. Hope you're having an awesome Monday!

A little more about me

2011-08-10T06:27:00.000-07:00

After doing my poll a few weeks ago, I realized that a lot of you probably don't understand a lot about cerebral palsy. While some people are paralyzed and unable to communicate that is not the case with me. I'm not paralyzed. I can walk some with the help of my walker.

I've had several people come up to me in the doctor's office and ask if I had an accident. I did not have a car accident. I started having back pains at he end of my sophomore year in high school. What started out as a back ache quickly turned into something more.

After several months of trying to find a doctor that would accept my new insurance, x-rays revealed that I had a stress fracture in my lower back. The formal diagnosis was spondylolysis. The doctors tried to treat it with two different types of braces with no improvement. The diagnosis was then changed to spondylolisthesis. After an MRI showed that the stress fracture had gotten worse, the doctor said surgery was my only option.

In the summer of 2007, I had back surgery. Much to everyone's suprise, my doctor discovered that my vertebrate in my back were actually broken when they were doing my operation. No wonder I was in so much pain!

After the surgery, I was feeling much better. Physical therapy was going great. About three months later, I got an infection in my hip. This is the major reason why I'm still in a wheelchair.

Anyway, I hope this clears things up for some of you. If you have any questions, just feel free to ask.

Don't Wait

2011-08-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

An old man once said, "There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who will make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living." ~Not sure of the author

In light of my grandfather's passing, I've been reflecting on a lot of things. I will try to sum up my thoughts.

We shouldn't wait until someone dies to start treating others with respect. Don't wait until tomorrow to do something kind for someone. Don't wait until tomorrow to become a better you. Don't wait until tomorrow to focus on someone other than yourself. Don't wait until it's too late to try fix everything you wish you would have done differently.

I guess that is something that has been playing over and over in my mind like a tape on repeat. Start living your life today. You can't change the past, but you CAN change your future.

My mom has said before that everyday is an opportunity, and that is so true. Whether we say good things or bad, treat others with respect or not, love people unconditionally or not is up to us. We have the power to choose what we do and what kind of mark we leave behind.

When you die, will your mark be worth copying?

Death is not the End

2011-07-31T10:44:00.000-07:00

My Granddaddy passed away yesterday. He is not in pain anymore, thank goodness. I got to talk to him about a week before he quit responding, so that was some precious time that I'm so thankful for. Death isn't the worst thing. The worst thing is not knowing where someone will spend eternity. I know he's in heaven, and that makes all the difference in the world.

I won't be on much this week as we prepare for the funeral and support my grandmother.

My Granddaddy

2011-07-27T12:50:00.001-07:00

My Granddaddy is dying of cancer. Instead of focusing on the negative, I want to remember the good things.

Here are a few things that come to mind when I think of my Granddaddy:

History channel lover.

Joke teller.

Loves the outside.

Loves Reba MacIntyre. :)

He's spoiled by Memaw's home cooking.

Loves his grandkids and great grandkids. Seriously, he is always telling people about us, and always wants to know what's going on in our lives. Some people aren't fortunate enough to have people that care about them, so I'm very thankful for that.

Has had the opportunity to travel the world with my Memaw. They always brought each grandkid something back, and those things are very special to me.

This is just something I needed to do. Writing is very therapeutic for me, so it helps to be able to release my emotions. I also want Mason to know Granddaddy and the only thing he will have is stories and pictures. Even though I'm not doing Memories Rewind weekly right now, I may write some about my family when the mood strikes.

I've visited with my Granddaddy a lot these past few weeks, and I'm so grateful for the time I have with him. I'm also glad that I've been able to go visit my grandparents more this past year because my health is better than it was a few years ago.

Hug your loved your loved ones a little tighter today and always find ways to make memories.

What my Handwriting says about Me

2011-07-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

I found a handwriting analysis quiz awhile back, so I had to take it. :)

Here are the directions: On a piece of unlined paper, write the following paragraph using at least two lines:

'Well!' thought Alice to herself, 'after such a fall as this, I shall think nothing of tumbling down stairs! How brave they'll all think me at home! Why, I wouldn't say anything about it, even if I fell off the top of the house!' (Which was very likely true.)

Alice's adventures in wonderland
Lewis Carroll

Here's a picture of my handwriting:

Now for the fun part!

1. Your letters slope,

Straight up and down - indicates that you are a person with a strong need for contact.

2. The letters in your words are,

Partially connected - indicates that you are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships.

3. The spaces between your words are,

Narrow - indicates that you are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!

4. How close together are your lines of writing?

Apart far enough that letters do not touch - indicates that you enjoy social interactions and are talkative.

5. What color ink did you choose?

Blue black - indicates that you are rational and conservative. You adhere to conventions and traditions.

6. How large was your capital I in the sample?

Larger than the other capital letters - indicates that you are a person with a high opinion of yourself, or who wants others to think that you do.

7. What do your t bars look like?

Cross the 't' more or less in the middle - indicates that you are not very original but quite responsible.

8. Your writing slopes,

Downward - indicates that you are steadfast, purposeful, and possibly aloof.

9. Which takes the most space vertically in a line of your writing?

The middle zone letters - indicates that you are a materialist, and prone to exaggeration.

10. How much pressure does your writing show?

Firm and even - indicates that you are a person of strong but rigid will, obstinate but powerful.

This was interesting. Some of it was right on, while others were definitely not. What does your handwriting say about you?

P.S. Don't forget to enter my giveaway here! It ends on July 29th.

Win Flyers from Uprinting.com!

2011-07-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

Hey, my fabulous readers! Apryl from Uprinting.com contacted me offering to sponsor a giveaway for everyone. The prize up for grabs is 250 nightclub flyers!

Even though they are called nightclub flyers, they would be great for birthday parties, charity events, book promotions, etc. The possibilities are endless! Since I love eye catching designs, I couldn't say no.

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Quick Post

2011-07-18T11:22:00.001-07:00

I'm still here. They've called in Hospice for my Granddaddy, so I've been spending extra time with him. I have a fun post planned for this week and some other things, but I have to get them done first. :) Bear with me.

If I could leave you with anything today, I would say treasure your loved ones. Don't wait until tomorrow to say I love you.

P.S. You have one day to vote in my poll! Take a few seconds to tell me what posts you'd want to see on Making my Mark in the future!

I want to hear from You!

2011-07-11T09:36:00.000-07:00

I know I have readers from all over the world. I would love to hear from you! How did you find my blog? Do any of you have blogs that I could visit? I love getting to know new people, so leave me a comment sometime!

Also, I have put up a poll on my sidebar. I would like your input on some blog topics. What do you want to know more about? (You can select more than one answer.) Let me know by participating in the poll!

A not so popular Post

2011-07-08T16:55:00.000-07:00

This won't be a popular post for everyone, and that's okay. You don't have to agree with me. This is just my opinion.

I don't know why people cuss, but I've come up with a few explanations.

Is it because they want to fit in with other people(specifically when they're in high school)?

Do they want attention?

Is it for the shock value of spewing a bunch of expletives?

I don't know the answer, but I have never cared for it because I had to grow up around it. A friend of mine asked why people cussed, and I responded quite differently than everyone else.

I said people who cuss show they have a limited vocabulary. Think about it. If you can only respond to people's statements with 5 or 6 words, you have a limited vocabulary. In my opinion, people who cuss every other breath are not good communicators. I say this because to communicate, you have to be able to explain your thoughts in a way that everyone can understand. Adding in expletives after every other word is not going to make your thoughts any clearer. If it sounds dumb without cuss words, just imagine how foolish you look when your statement is filled with cuss words. This has just been something that has been on my mind. I just think people can do better.

Any thoughts?

Get Some Perspective

2011-07-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

*This was published in my church's weekly publication called The Celebration.

Do you have the right perspective?

Can you imagine what kind of power we would have in our lives if we would step back from our problems and look at them from God’s perspective instead of our own? If we really sought His view of things, we wouldn’t be so worried about gas prices, the economy, and all the other woes of society.

Let’s face it, we usually can't see God's picture for our lives because we are drowning in our own issues. Feelings of self-pity, anger, resentment, unforgiveness, jealousy, fear and pride all cloud our vision. These things cause us to be blind to His plan for our lives. They are pebbles in our path, but the fear that comes with not seeing clearly causes those pebbles to look like huge rocks to us. If we saw those things the way God sees them, those pebbles would not cause us to take a second glance. I don’t know about you, but I've had to ask God to remove the blinders from my eyes lately so that I can see clearly. I don’t’ want to go through my life with vision blurred by my own inadequacies when I should be looking through the eyes of His grace.

What perspective do you have?

To my Nephew

2011-07-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

As my nephew is sleeping peacefully, I can't help but think of all that I want for him in his life. This song by Rascal Flatts sums up my thoughts perfectly.

"My Wish" by Rascal Flatts

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Coming Out of a Funk

2011-06-30T07:36:00.000-07:00

These past few days have been a little trying. I'm hanging in there, though. Tomorrow I finish one of my summer classes! :)

I've just been in a funk. Sometimes I get disappointed that I can only sit up so long or walk so far. Then, people who mean well say something about it, which doesn't help matters.

I don't stay like this for long, though because I am quickly reminded of how far I've come. A few years ago, I couldn't go to church at all because of how much pain I was in. Now, I get to go to one service a week and help out with the Media and Publications team on another night of the week! I can't tell you how much it blesses me to be around my church family.

I'm writing this to say, Quit letting your mind tell you how much of a failure you are! (This is for me, too). If you are depressed and downtrodden, you can't do everything God wants you to do.

Wake up in the morning and say:

Today is going to be a good day

I believe that God has given me everything I need to be a success

I refuse to let negativity get me down

I have a joy inside of me that I can't contain

I love myself

That love spills over to those around me

Now,You have to be smiling after reading that!

So Grateful

2011-06-26T10:05:00.000-07:00

My sweet little nephew Mason had to have surgery on Wednesday. It was unexpected to say the least. Ever since he was born, he would vomit almost every time he was fed. He was in and out of the doctor's office, but nothing seemed wrong...on the outside. Finally, he was coughing up blood, so they took him to the ER. Soon after, he was diagnosed with pyloric stenosis, which means he had a narrow opening to his small intestines.

This is a picture of him a little while after his surgery. Isn't his blanket adorable?

He is home and doing so much better. I went to see him yesterday, and he was sleeping peacefully as I left. All praise goes to God for taking care of my sweet little man.

Studying Too Much Means Crazy Dreams

2011-06-23T07:58:00.000-07:00

You know you've studied too much theatre when...

You go to bed and have a dream about you doing a play with some classmates and you forget all of your lines. It was bad, my friends. I woke up wondering if I really had been THAT bad in the play. I was stumbling over my words. Plain and simply put, it was bad.

I must have come to my senses a little bit in the dream because I started making up lines instead of standing there with my mouth gaping open. In my dream, the audience seemed to love my improvisations, but my teacher was so sure. I guess she was just glad we finished the play even though it was different from the script At least I didn't look like too big of a dummy.

Anyway, I just wanted to share my crazy dream with all of you. Hope it made you laugh!

Not Tiptoeing through the Tulips

2011-06-18T11:03:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days since I have written. I have had to process many emotions as I come to terms with my granddaddy's cancer. Yes, he has cancer. I haven't said anything until now out of respect for him. What I'm going to say today, he would approve of.

In the midst of life, we all deal with things. It absolutely amazes me how some people react when things are suddenly not going their way. People complain and fuss about things that don't even matter in the grand scheme of things.

Last week, I was thinking about my granddaddy and this thought came to mind, "At the end of your life, do you want to look back on things only to realize that you spent the majority of your life fighting with your family?"

I don't. Each day, I have to make a choice whether or not I'm going to react in love to those around me. Life is too short to be complaining. God has done so much for each one of us that we ought to be ashamed at ourselves. The truth is, most of us will just go on taking that grace He so freely gives for granted.

Wake up, people! Ask God to help you see others as He sees them. We have ALL messed up. None of us are perfect. Whatever happened to treating others as you want to be treated?

Book Review: Spring for Susannah by Catherine Richmond

2011-06-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

I recently read the e-book version of Spring for Susannah by Catherine Richmond. It's a fictional novel that automatically swept me into the story. Susannah Underhill is a girl who finds herself out West knowing no one except her minister's brother, Jesse Mason. Her parents died, so she had no one to turn to. She's supposed to marry Jesse, but she doesn't even love herself. With each passing day, she breaks through those walls that have kept her isolated from the world for so long. She even surprises herself at how wonderful things can be when you let love heal your heart.

I had never read any of Catherine Richardson's books, so I wasn't sure what to expect. When I started reading, I couldn't put the book down because I wanted to know what happened next. I loved how Richardson painted a picture of Susannah. Her words made the character leap off the page and allowed me to experience her hurts, frustrations, and even joys. This would be a great book to take to the beach. It's a love story in more ways than one with some unexpected twists and unique characters along the way. I would definitely recommend this book if you're looking for a new one to read!

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze®.com book review bloggers program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.

Learning New Things

2011-06-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

My summer classes have officially started. I'm really enjoying my Theatre Appreciation class so far. I never would have thought of my daily interactions with people as theatre, but according to what theatre is, are. Think about it. We change outfits depending on where we are going(school outfit would be different than a party outfit). Most of us talk different in front of our grandparents than our friends. These were just a few of the things my professor pointed out in her lecture. I just thought that was so interesting because I had never thought about it!

I'm working on some new posts. I just haven't gotten everything together yet. Hope everyone is having a great week!

Running on Empty

2011-06-01T11:46:00.000-07:00

This is just a quick blog post to update everyone. I haven't been feeling so great these past few days. Today, I woke up feeling sluggish, so I've just been trying to listen to my body and rest. My summer classes start in the next few days, but I've gotten a head start on some of the material. :)

I think my body is still having to adjust to doing my physical therapy at home. I know what my goals are, but slow and steady wins the race, right?

Growing up Different

2011-05-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

I was recently asked to share my story on a website about cerebral palsy. You can read it here. I added a few details about what it was like growing up with CP. I was very thankful for the opportunity to share my story with many others. Even though most of those people will probably never read my blog, just knowing that I was able to give someone a glimmer of hope makes my heart full.

I've always believed that you should share what you have with others. I guess this is kind of what Jesus felt like when he shared the Good News with people on Earth. I just try to add a little sunshine to this world.

This is kind of unrelated, but if you want, you can "like" my Facebook page for the blog. You can find it on my left sidebar. I share little tidbits of my life as well as a first look at new blog posts!

Reach

2011-05-25T12:06:00.000-07:00

If you have any questions for me, comment on this post!

My power cord unplugged from my computer the other night. It fell beside my bed, which can be a bit tricky for me to take care of.

The power was slowly dwindling on the computer. I tried several times to reach the power cord with no success. My arm was sore and there was a possibility that I could fall off the bed and have to lay there while I waited for someone to come help me. But, I had work to do and I needed my computer. So…I heaved my body over the side of the bed and reached until I had that little black cord within my grasp. My adrenaline was pumping. After all that work, and a little bit of risk, I wasn't about to let go of that thing!

How many times have we quit reaching for our dreams? We get stuck where we are, we can’t go forward, and there doesn’t seem to be anyone around to help. We get tired from making no progress, but the risk of action seems too great to take a chance. Instead of hiding and burying yourself within your sorrow, let Holy Ghost propel you further. Don't let the obstacles keep you from getting what's yours!

Have a Question?

2011-05-23T17:25:00.000-07:00

You are in luck! Since summer here, I have more time to blog. I try to do a question and answer post every once in a while, so now is as good a time as any.

If you have any questions, leave them in a comment, and I'll get to them in the next few days!

Life Right Now

2011-05-18T11:07:00.001-07:00

Hey, everyone! I'm still here. I just wanted to give an update on things. My life has been changed forever since my little nephew arrived. I can't wait until he gets a little bigger so he can play with us. Seeing him for the first time was a priceless moment. I can't understand how people abort their babies....

Anyway, I digress. Life is good.

I've been spending some time snuggling this little guy and listening to him coo softly as he sleeps

and kissing his little cheeks. I admit I'm a bit partial, but I don't think life could get any better! What have you been up to this week?

I'm an Aunt!

2011-05-14T07:21:00.000-07:00

Introducing Mason Grant

Born on May 13, 2011 at 4:25 p.m.

7 lbs 8 oz. 20 inches long

Look at all that hair!

Full of Anticipation

2011-05-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

My mom kept a diary for my brother and me, so I wanted to document this day for my nephew.

My sister in law is scheduled to be induced today. Even though she's not due until the 19th, she wanted to be induced. That means we will have a new little member to our family!

Mason,

I can hardly believe that it's time for you to be here. Nine months seemed to have passed by so quickly. I've been wondering who you'll look like, what kind of temperment you'll have, and so much more. I won't have to wait much longer! The anticipation is definitely building. I can't wait to watch you grow up and become your own person.

I love to write, so I thought I would document my thoughts before you come into this great big world. I also want to give you a little advice. :)

First and foremost, love with all of your heart. Don't be ashamed to be different. Blending in with the crowd is overrated anyway.

Remember to dream big. I read a quote one time that said the only place dreams are impossible is in your own mind. The world is yours for the taking, my sweet nephew.

I could say much more, but my mind is swirling with a million thoughts. Your daddy has got the music turned up this morning, so I think that's why I can't concentrate. He's playing the song, "We Will Rock You" right now. :) I guess that means he's ready to get this show on the road!

I just want you to know that you are loved. I can't wait to welcome you into the world.

All my love,

Auntie M

Book Review: Unleashed by Erwin Raphael McManus

2011-05-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

This book is not for the faint of heart. If you're looking for a book that is different from the cookie cutter books about Christianity, look no further. Erwin McManus challenges everyone to unleash the faith within. It's easier said than done. Will you answer the call?

I was very excited to get this book because I knew it was different just by looking at the cover. We need different perspectives in today's society. While I don't agree with every statement in the book, I would recommend it to others. It definitely inspired me to live life with my eyes wide open and look for opportunities that others might pass by to exercise my faith. I really like that he included different people in the Bible who lived by faith unashamedly. I knew some of the people he mentioned, but others he included surprised me. It also reaffirmed that when you walk with Jesus, there are going to be hard times. Even so, following Jesus is so worth it. If you've often been bored with religion, buy this book. It will challenge you to have a real and meaningful relationship with Him.

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze®.com book review bloggers program in exchange for a review. I wasn't required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.

Turning the Page on Physical Therapy

2011-05-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you write just for therapy. Today is one of those days. I found out last week that my physical therapist of seven years is leaving. I have mixed emotions about it for sure.

He was my first male physical therapist and I didn't know how to feel about it. I was used to women. Over time, I began to realize he wasn't so bad. His encouragement on some rough days was a welcome relief from the pain.

Now, instead of seeing him once a week, my mom will become my physical therapist. He has given me the tools to get better, so I know that we can do this together. I'm not stopping where I'm at right now. This is just a transition period.

He has made a difference in my life, and my life is richer because he was in it. I told him that there are going to be people at his new job that need him to help them just like I did. The days of juggling school and physical therapy are over, but I will still have his friendship. That is worth more than any physical therapy appointment.

Cutie Pie Keller

2011-05-05T05:50:00.000-07:00

You've all met my adorable cousin Keller in previous posts. He just turned a year old this past Saturday! I can't believe how quickly time has passed. Now, he smiles when he sees you, and he's fluent in baby gibberish. :)

He's in a contest sponsored by Parent magazine. If he wins, he'll be on the front cover! There's only one problem: he needs some votes! Click here if you want to vote for him. You can vote once in the morning and once in the evening. Thanks in advance for all of your help! My readers are the best!

EDIT: Sorry, I had the wrong link up earlier. If you click to vote, it will now take you straight to Keller's picture. Again, I apologize for any confusion.

Another Semester is Ending

2011-05-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Well, my junior year of college is drawing to a close. Wow, that is just mind boggling to me! I thought I was not going to graduate in four years, but as of right now I'm on schedule. :) I have one more final tomorrow, and I'll be done for a little while. I'm doing two online classes this summer, so that will get me a few steps closer to graduation.

This next year will be filled with last classes, senior project, and many other things. Lasts always bring firsts, though. I'll have my first job, first paycheck...

I'm excited and a little nervous. Then, I'm reminded that God has been with me every step of my journey and will continue to be. When I think of it that way, I can smile knowing the best days are yet to come!

A Long Awaited Vacation

2011-04-26T19:38:00.000-07:00

I have a good reason for not posting the past few days. My mom and I went to Tennessee for a few days! It was great to go because we haven't got to go anywhere far from home in over eight years because of my health. We stayed at a friend's cabin on the river. I thought I would do an update in pictures.

This was the view of the mountains and sky as we drove to Tennessee. It was a beautiful sunshiney day!

This was our view every morning when we woke up. The sound of the river is very peaceful, but it takes a little getting used to at night. The name of this river is Pigeon River.

We went to the Titanic museum. Since we both loved the movie, we thought it would be interesting. We got to see tiny replicas of the different floors (first, second, third class), stamps, letters, and even photos of people who were on Titanic. The above photo is a replica of Titanic's anchor. Sadly, no pictures were allowed once you were inside. I highly recommend it if you're ever in the area!

These were some giant trees!

I thought this sign was hilarious! I know lots of things are for sale, but I never knew husbands fell into that category.

That's a little snippet of our vacation. It was fun, but it's always good to come back home!

A Day in my Life

2011-04-20T14:16:00.000-07:00

I won't be publishing Memories Rewind posts for awhile because I'm incorporating them into a school project and don't want to give everything away. Don't worry, they are not going away.

One of my readers recently suggested that I do a post about what a day in my life is like. I thought it was a great idea! Jillan, I've been trying to think of more ways to incorporate some personal pictures. :)

I listen to history lectures online and take notes. We have lectures in class, too, but this is a great resource because it enables me to really soak in the information. I do this from the comfort of my own bed. :)

Here lately, you can find me editing photos in Adobe Photoshop because I'm working on a final project for my graphic design class. The above picture is an example of one of my edited images.

My long time readers will know that physical therapy is a big part of my life, so I couldn't do this post without including that. I'm there for about an hour each time.

I also write. The montonous sound of my fingers hitting the keys is almost a therapeutic thing for me. I write papers, short stories, etc. If I'm not on my laptop, I'm either sleeping, eating, in the shower, or at church.

I hope you enjoyed this glimpse into my life!

A Digital Story about NYC

2011-04-15T07:25:00.001-07:00

As promised, I'm going to share the digital story that a fellow classmate and I have been working on with an education major at our school for about the past month. A digital story is a short video with narration and special effects, thanks to iMovie. We edited the pictures in Photoshop and created the pages using a software called InDesign. (If you've never heard of InDesign, I highly recommend it for creating brochures, magazines, etc.)

Our education major loved history, so we incorporated different landmarks in New York City throughout our story. The story is called My Trip to the Big Apple. Bobby and his family decide to take a trip to NYC over the summer, and now he is telling his class all about it! Click the link to read it!

This was a fun, yet sometimes stressful project that combined communication with multimedia. I'm really pleased with the finished product, though. :)

Guest Post: The Secret to Having a Successful Blog

2011-04-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

"The greatest oak
was once a little nut
who held its ground."

~Author Unknown~

A walnut seed, if it could feel, might start off in a huge forest totally intimidated by the walnut trees that stand high and have lived many, many years producing beautiful nuts. The hard shelled, tiny walnut seed that can fit in the palm of your hand may feel overwhelmed with the task ahead.

There are so many obstacles to prevent the walnut from growing into a mature, fruit bearing tree.

Fire.

Drought.

Hurricane.

Tornado.

Bugs.

Flood.

Man.

Animals.

Mold.

The list might make the walnut feel like giving up.

We are not, however, walnuts.

Sitting in front of a computer monitor that shows a totally blank blog can be daunting. However, bear in mind that every blog, no matter how large or popular, began the same way.

Blank.

Empty.

Zero followers.

No readers.

The secret to succeeding with your blog is to keep things in perspective. When you were just a small child, you went to school and started at kindergarten. You might have thought, "It is going to take forever to graduate," and it probably felt that way too.

Each year, as long as you did the work, you moved up a grade until finally the day arrived and you graduated. There you stood, holding it in your hands...the coveted diploma.

Accomplishment.

Your day had arrived.

Writing a blog is not much different than growing into a fruitful walnut tree or graduating from high school. They all require the same attitude and action.

Perseverance.

To become a successful blogger, you must keep your eye on the goal and continue posting in spite of obstacles, difficulties, lack of knowledge, or discouragement. The main ingredient is to be steadfast while moving towards a blog filled with exciting, thoughtful, interesting, informative, and helpful information.

Don't worry about the lack of readers, the blunders you will undoubtedly make while typing or coding, or the continual negative or pessimistic comments by others.

Just keep blogging.

Keep your blog well watered with new material and before you know it...

You will have a blog filled with post after post of information that attracts many readers, enhances the lives of others and is an outlet that provides a source for your creativity.

Thank you, Madison, for the opportunity to be your guest blogger today, but most of all for your beautiful friendship.

The Redhead Riter authors multiple blogs, a successful forum, and has a weekly series of blogging tips entitled "Woo Us To Your Blog" where you can also link your blog as a helpful way to increase your own exposure on the internet.

7 things you probably don't know about me...

2011-04-08T07:39:00.000-07:00

I have been super busy with school. I've been finishing a paper and working on a digital story. I can't post it yet, but I will when it's done! I'm really proud of the work me and me classmate did. Stay tuned for that. I wanted to take a minute to thank Barbra from Chasing Metamorphsis for the Stylish Blogger award. It's been awhile since I received an award, so thank you!

Here are the rules:

Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this award .

Share 7 things about yourself.

Award 15 recently discovered great bloggers.

Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.

7 Things About Me

1. I don't eat candy very often.

2. I love jazz music!

3. I'm strong willed and sometimes stubborn.

4. Given the choice between watching TV or a movie, I'd pick a movie any day.

5. I love to read, but lately I've just been reading textbooks.

6. I wish I could rock a super short hairstyle, but I don't think it would suit me.

7. My daddy wanted to name me Scarlett Rose.

I pass this award on to: all of you! I can't pick just 15 blogs right now, so if you want to participate, go ahead. :)

Breathe in, breathe out

2011-04-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

Some days, you just have to put one foot in front of the other. Well, that's what I'm doing. These past few weeks have been tough. I'm not going to sugarcoat things and make you think my life is all roses because it's not.

I'm very restless with where I'm at right now. I want to be able to do more in physical therapy. I absolutely hate it when I don't have the energy to do my work. Some people think I'm crazy for having to lay in the bed and rest, but what they don't realize is I'm trying to recoup from the previous day's activities.

Each day, I try to remind myself that God gives grace for the moment. I'm so glad He has mercy on me, even on my weakest days when I'm a little too snappy about little things that shouldn't bother me.

No, I'm not satisfied with things right now, but I'm trying to be content. Oh, that is easier said than done, my friends. I know that even when it seems like I'm not getting anywhere, I am. If I can just hold on a little bit longer, I know I'll turn the corner. My prayer is this: "Lord, help me to be patient. When the work seems endless, help me to realize how much I've already accomplished. Most of all, help me to always remember to be thankful for where you have brought me from." Amen.

Thanks for letting me vent today. :) That was like taking a big sigh of relief because I know I don't have to keep everything inside of me.

What do you need to let go of?

P.S. Don't forget to vote for me! I'm in a contest for the top cerebral palsy blog. Go here to vote. Just type in http://dropletsonajournal.blogspot.com/!

Book Review: Eat Your Peas Faithfully by Cheryl Karpen

2011-04-01T17:54:00.000-07:00

I've just finished reading Eat Your Peas Faithfully by Cheryl Karpen. This book is a very short read. This gift book has empowering messages on each page. It is a great little pick me up anytime of the day because it reminds you of God's simple truths that are so easy to forget.

I loved the colorful pages. I was suprised that she included Bible verses that went along with each page. This would be a great book for children or adults. It can be read in just a few minutes, which is great since we all have busy lives. Overall, I thought the book was very inspiring, and the author managed to pack a lot of helpful insights about life into just a few pages! I would love to read her book for young adults as well!

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze®.com book review bloggers program in exchange for a review. I wasn't required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.

My Not So Lovely Reflection

2011-03-31T05:30:00.000-07:00

Love is a four letter that we want to define on our own terms instead of God's. If someone is doing something that makes me happy, I say that I love them. But, do I really love them when they criticize something that I say? My human reaction is usually a resounding NO! Since God says we should love through any situation, it's up to me to figure out exactly what it is that is in me stopping me from loving them in the moment that they hurt me.

Recently, I had some conflict with my brother. I was so mad at him for criticizing the way I had spoken to someone! It was like he was holding up a mirror, showing me a part of myself that I didn't want to see. Once I got past the fact that I didn't like his harsh tone, I realized his words were filled with truth. I do need to look at the way I respond to people, but until that moment, I was in the dark about it. I had my image reflected in that mirror, and it was not exactly pretty! In fact, I probably looked like an old woman that snubs her nose at people for no good reason! I don't know about you, but that is not how I want to come across to people!

Now that I've shared a "not so glorious" moment of mine, think about this: If someone speaks the truth in love to you, what would those words show you? What does that reflection in your mirror look like? As you go through this week, I challenge you to think about what you are reflecting to others. Love takes work, but with a little patience and self-examination, we can get there!

Guest Post: Laying Your Life Down

2011-03-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

Today we have a guest poster. Some of you may read her blog Dance, Dance, Dance. It is none other than my mom. You all get to hear things from my perspective, but I thought I would let her share some of her thoughts today.

I know what your thinking I would lay my life down for my brother, mother, boyfriend, girlfriend and the list could go on and on. As much as we could comprehend that phrase we would. The year was 1989, and I gave birth to twins. They were three months early so this is where another part of my journey begins of me laying down my life. I had no idea at the time of their birth what would transpire over the next twenty one years. All I knew was that ever since I was a little girl I wanted children. I wanted the best life that I could give them. Since they were premature there was all kinds of complications. My son came home on a ventilator and heart monitor. My daughter had a mild case of cerebral palsy. The doctors told me all kinds of facts about premature children. I was determined for them to have the best life possible.

Let's go forward twenty one years. My son drives and is expecting his first child in May. My daughter is in her third year of college. She has been in a wheelchair for the past few years, which has been a tough road for both of us. I commute her back and forth to college. Laying down means your life what it says, you lay down your life everyday for someone else. At times it has not been easy, but that didn't mean I gave up on my son or daughter. That just means I died to what I wanted even more.

It says in the Bible to live is to die. In doing this I have learned how to love on a whole different level. All the fruits of the Spirit have went to a whole new level in my life. When I talk about fruits of the Spirit I am talking about patience, love, my time and the list goes on. How much patience would you have if you didn't see any results six months or even a year? I have been in this place. I'm stretched everyday, and which is a good thing because it means I can keep on growing.

God sent his son to lay down his life for us. How much more should we lay our lives down for our brothers and sisters in Christ. I challenge you this week to examine yourself to see how you are laying your lives down.

Written with Hope

2011-03-28T06:17:00.000-07:00

This is an open letter to my Mama. I have some things I just need to say. Sometimes, I can't say things that I want to say without tears streaming down my face, so I'm going to express my thoughts through words today.

Dear Mama,

I want you to know that I haven't given up on walking again. I know at times progress is slow, but I'm doing it one step at a time.

Some days are long. When my hips ache at school, and most people would pick up the phone to go home, I stay. I don't stay to prove anything to anyone. I stay because there is something deep inside of me that motivates me to keep going.

Sometimes, I want to cry when I realize I can't do the simple physical therapy exercises at home. A few years ago they were a normal routine. Your gentle reminder that "You'll get there, Madison" means more than you'll ever know.

You didn't give up on me when I was was fighting for my life in the NICU.

You didn't give up on me when I took longer than most people to recover from surgeries.

You didn't give up on me when I was bedridden with an infection and had to rely on you for even the simplest things.

I know that when I am able to walk again, you will be there supporting me just like you always have.

Love,

Me

Memories Rewind: Baby Keepsakes

2011-03-24T20:02:00.000-07:00

This is the weekly Memories Rewind post on Thursday instead of Wednesday. Since I haven't been feeling my best and had lots of school work, this is the first chance I've gotten to post anything.

The other day, my mom and I were going through a chest filled with our baby things. She pulled out a shirt that she kept from when we were preemies. She said the shirt had to be handmade by someone because the stores didn't have any clothes small enough to fit us. It was so hard to imagine myself that little, but my mom was taken back to that time instantly with each thing she pulled out of the chest.

"Eli would pull his oxygen tubes out of his nose" she said with a laugh.

Tucked in a box with our baby scrapbook was a tiny white diaper that Mama kept as a reminder of just how little we were. Average size diapers seem so huge in comparison to the teeny tiny preemie ones!

It seems like such a long time ago, but in fact it's just the opposite. Life passes by so quickly, if we blink, we will miss something.

Warm Welcome to New Followers

2011-03-22T06:27:00.001-07:00

I clicked on my blog to check for any new comments before bed last night, and to my surprise, I have 51 followers now! Wow, over fifty people are interested in what I have to say. Thanks for all of your comments over this past week. I read all of them, and I enjoy getting to see things from your perspective.

Since some of you are new here, I want to make sure you are aware of all the ways you can keep up with this blog. Look on my left sidebar. There is a box that is linked to my Facebook page that I created for this blog. Click the "like" button to stay up-to-date with all things related to Making my Mark!

I just wanted to welcome all of the new people. Click through my followers list. You might even find some new blogs to read!

Looking into the Mirror

2011-03-19T12:33:00.000-07:00

Mirror, mirror on the wall

I think I look like a big round ball

I feel so alone

It's almost like I'm in a twilight zone

Stupid, stupid mirror how I wish you would fall!

This is a limerick that my mom and I came up with today as we were talking about body image. How many times in have we looked in the mirror and hated our reflection? Sometimes what we see in the mirror and the reality of things is so much different. I compared it to one of those fun house mirrors that distorts the true image. That image may make your face look huge, when you actually look just fine.

"Mama, if you asked me what you look like, I would tell you that you look fine," I told her. So many times we all get caught up in a tangled web of what we think is the truth. I think it's a mental thing, too. I know people who have lost weight but still see themselves as that heavy person. No matter how many compliments they get or new outfits they buy, they can't seem to shake that picture they have in their head. Sometimes, if we just step away from the mirror and get a fresh perspective, we will realize we were wrong the whole time!

Have you ever hated your mirror?

Don't forget to continue voting for me in the cerebral palsy blog contest! I've written a post about it if you want to read it. Click this link to vote!

Moving at a Snail's Pace

2011-03-16T19:46:00.000-07:00

I haven't forgotten about Memories Rewind this week, I promise. I have been unusually tired these past few days, so I just came home and crashed when I got home from school today.

Maybe I will post it this weekend instead of on Wednesday. How does that sound?

It's kind of frustrating when you have things you want to do, but your body has other plans. Just say a prayer that my energy returns soon.

P.S. Here's your daily reminder to nominate me for the top cerebral palsy blog of the year. Go here to vote. I now know that you can vote multiple times a day, so feel free to do that. This is easily done by just typing in the website again and re-entering my blog's URL, which is http://dropletsonajournal.blogspot.com/ Thank you to everyone who has taken time to vote!

Just as I Am

2011-03-14T13:45:00.000-07:00

I went to see my adorable baby cousin this weekend. After I got home, I realized something. As I was holding him, he was mesmerized with me. He watched my every move, and every once in a while, he would flash me one of those priceless little grins. He didn't do any back flips or hug me.

I love him because he is Keller. He doesn't have to do anything to earn my love. He already has it. This reminded me of my relationship with God. I can come to Him, fully aware of my flaws and shortcomings, and He still loves me.

If we would just realize the depth of God's love for us, we would be a totally different person. Our world would be full of more trusting people. Unfortunately, that is not the case. I say this because you wouldn't see people trying to be someone they're not. They would be okay just being themselves.

As I was holding my baby cousin, I looked at his little face. At one point, he was struggling to keep his eyes open. He was relaxed enough to sleep, but he didn't want to miss a minute of what was going on around him. God holds each one of us in His hand, but how many of us trust Him enough to relax in His arms? I'll admit that I don't always trust Him. Sometimes, I have an overwhelming desire to know what is going on in my life just so I'm in control of something.

Have you ever had that feeling?

Then, I'm reminded that I was never in control to begin with when my stubborness jerks me back to reality. I wake up from my haze of confusion and realize He was holding me the whole time.

P.S. Don't forget to vote for me today! Go here to nominate me. You can do this once a day. I want to say a big thank you to those that have already voted! I really appreciate it.

I Need Your Help!

2011-03-11T13:44:00.000-08:00

While browsing the internet, I came across a site that allows you to nominate the top cerebral palsy blogs. Nominations for 2011 have already begun.

Click here to nominate my blog if you want to. All you have to do is enter my URL http://dropletsonajournal.blogspot.com/ and hit submit. Your nominations are a big part of the score. It may be a long shot, but it's worth a try. I hope my blog presents a new face of cerebral palsy. I hope people see bright features instead of kids off playing by themselves. I hope people see it is possible to be happy in the midst of life's storms. I hope parents of special needs children all across the globe are inspired.

You may be asking yourself what should they be inspired for? They're lives have been turned upside down. You are right. Life can change in an instant, but I hope they are inspired to keep dreaming big dreams for their child.

I'll leave you with this quote:

“The only place dreams are impossible is in your own mind.” – Emalie

You can also click the Facebook icon at the bottom of this post to share it with your friends. Thanks in advance for your help!

Mood Boosters

2011-03-10T07:36:00.000-08:00

I'm alive, but I'm not back to normal just yet. I've been feeling pretty yucky these last few days, but at least I have time to rest.

I thought it would be fun to make a list of things that instantly put me in a good mood:

Music

Sunshine peeking through the clouds

Peanut M&M's

Reba McEntire's show on Lifetime If you've never seen this, you should. It's hilarious!

Making progress at physical therapy

Hearing someone say they enjoy what I write

A hug from a little child

Seeing my baby cousin smile

Getting a good grade on an assignment that I spent a lot of time on

Talking with my grandparents

What are some things that can put you in a good mood?

P.S. I've made a Facebook page for my blog. Go to the left sidebar and click "like" so that you'll always be in the know on things related to the blog. There will be new posts, quotes, and it's a place for all of you who love this blog to be in one place.

He's Always There

2011-03-07T06:00:00.000-08:00

My mom had to park on a hill in order for us to get the handicap parking place. We were getting ready to leave. For someone who can walk this wouldn't be a big deal, but for someone in a wheelchair, things can be a bit tricky.

"You know we're on a little bit of hill," my mom cautioned as I put the brakes on my wheelchair so it would be steady when I got ready to get up to get in the car.

"Yeah, which is stupid," I responded. All of a sudden, a man says, "I've got it." I looked behind me to see a man in a black sweater and stocking cap holding my wheelchair as I got up. "Don't worry, I'll hold it."

I was very surprised because no one was in the parking lot when we left the building and people don't exactly rush to help people in wheelchairs. I got into the car and the man said, "You ladies have a blessed day now."

After we left, I couldn't get the man out of my mind. The more I thought about it, the more my heart smiled at the thought of what he had done. He didn't have to. It was a cold and windy day, so he could have just kept on going past us without a second thought...but he didn't.

This reminded me of the way God is. In the midst of your frustration and you think you're all alone, God is there. He's saying, "Don't worry, I'll hold this. Let me help you."

Under the Weather

2011-03-03T12:03:00.000-08:00

I've been feeling a little under the weather the past few days. I think these last few projects and tests have caught up with me. Let's just say my bed has been my friend today. A scratchy throat, runny nose, and just general yuckiness is nothing a little rest and a good movie can't fix.

Hopefully by the weekend I'll be as good as new. I have lots of good posts swirling around in my head, but they won't write themselves. :)

Spring Break Fever-Party of One

2011-03-01T08:22:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm in the middle of another week. I'm one test, one presentation, and one speech away from Spring Break! Woo hoo! I won't know what to do with all of my free time. :) You all know that's not true. I'll probably write some blog posts, read a few books, and just enjoy getting out of the routine of homework and tests for a little while. It seems like I've been swimming in history dates, lots of facts about the World Wars, etc. This class is actually enjoyable because the teacher really loves teaching it.

I have some exciting things planned for this blog, so stick around. What has everyone been up to lately?

Don't be so Serious

2011-02-25T17:04:00.000-08:00

I have some things on my mind, so here it goes.

If you were to ask people who know me to describe me in one word, it would probably be serious. If they didn't mention that one first, it would be in the top three things I'm sure. It's one of the things I dislike about myself sometimes, such as when I'm giving a speech. Other times, it is one of my best qualities because I can focus on a task and see it through to completion.

I'm not quite sure how to change it, though. I guess I lost some of of that fun, carefree nature when I had to go through surgeries as a young child. Basically, I had to be tough. While others were worrying about what kind of outfit they were going to wear the next day, I had doctor's appointments.

Today, I'm just a little frustrated. I never want to come across as not approachable, yet sometimes I feel like that's exactly what happens. One good thing about reflecting on things is that I know what I need to work on. I know I'm a work in progress....sometimes I just wish things would happen quicker.

Memories Rewind: A Hairy Situation

2011-02-23T18:00:00.000-08:00

It was time for family pictures. Normally, I would pick out my dress and have everything laid out and ready to go. This day was different. We were super busy, so everything happened at the last minute. I brushed my hair, put on a dab of lipstick, and rushed out the door.

It was your classic set-up: Boring background and an overexcited photographer. Something happened that day that I still can't think about without laughing.

"Pose beside each other," the photographer said to my brother and I. "Kind of turn your shoulders sideways so you are leaning into each other just a little," he clarified.

Snap. Snap. Everything was going smoothly. We just had to look like we were excited to be there a little bit longer. Then, the inevitable happened. There was a screen so that you could preview the pictures. For the average person, this was a good thing, but for brothers and sisters this was a bad thing.

"How can you be taller than me!" my brother shrieked in digust. "Well, I guess I've grown a few inches," I said calmly.

My brother wasn't satisfied with that answer at all. In his mind, he just had to be taller than me. "Well, if you're hair didn't have that poof in it, you wouldn't be taller!" he said with a laugh.

He then proceeded to smoosh my hair down in the middle of taking pictures! I can only imagine how that looked. :) If the photographer thought it was funny, he didn't dare laugh. Needless to say, Eli's plan didn't work. My hair has natural body and wave, so it can't be smooshed unfortunately. But I can say I have proof that I was once taller than my brother.

Do you have any funny picture stories?

Sharing my Heart

2011-02-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

I want this blog to be about more than just me. I want to touch lives. I want people young and old to go away with their hearts fuller and their steps more sure.

I'm just going to share my heart with you. I long for a part of this blog to be a refuge for disabled families. I want to do a one on one interview with someone who is disabled about once a month, so that it eventually becomes a place for people to go to for answers. For hope. For an encouraging word. This would probably be easily accomplished by creating a YouTube channel for the interviews and then posting the link here. The reason for this is lots of videos on a blog makes the page load slower.

The interviews would be conducted through Skype, which is a free service and downloads in minutes.

I'm am only one person, but I can make a difference. One of my favorite quotes is by Edward Everett Hale:

"I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And I will not let what I cannot do interfere with what I can do."

Since I can't do everything myself, this is where my awesome readers come in! Do you know of someone who has an inspiring story but no one to tell it to? It can be any type of disability. I'm open to all ethnicities and ages, too. Post a comment or send me an e-mail with their name and a little bit about them. I would love to get started on this in the future.

Together we can do this!

Calling all Making my Mark Readers!

2011-02-20T06:16:00.001-08:00

I always love input from other people. I've been evaluating this blog and thinking of ways to make it better. I've got some things planned to keep the content interesting, but I want to hear from you! Since you take time out of your day to read what I write, what are some topics that you would like to know more about?

I've done Q&A's in the past with minimal response, so I thought I would try something different. I probably won't use all of your suggestions right away, but don't shy away from giving a suggestion.

Maybe you have thought of something great that I never would have thought of, so feel free to share your thoughts in the comments or a quick e-mail.

P.S. If you think the blog is okay as is, let me know that, too.

No Connection

2011-02-16T16:29:00.000-08:00

I apologize for things being so quiet around here the last few days. I do have a good reason, though. The Internet at our house has been down for awhile. They finally fixed it last night.

During this time, I've still had assignments to turn in and projects to complete. But, I wasn't distracted by status updates and the like. I love the Internet and its capabilities, but sometimes it feels like you are more detached from the world in a way. It seems kind of contradictory, though doesn't it? I mean websites like Facebook were built for connections.

I can't help but wonder if the Internet has helped foster this idea that it is okay to not talk to someone face to face. In today's society, sometimes people feel it's okay to just send a text when it would be better to actually meet with the person.

Although there were some obvious difficulties during this waiting period, one perk of no Internet was I able to just be. I didn't have to answer every e-mail in a haste. They were still going to be waiting for me the next day. Although the circumstances were not ideal, I did learn a few things. Without the hum of the computer and the sound of my fingers hitting the keys, I was forced into a quiet time. For those of you that know me personally know that is a rare thing because I'm always doing something.

How would your day change if you had no Internet?

A Post about Marriage

2011-02-14T05:55:00.000-08:00

My brother got married Saturday, so when I found a post about love and marriage I had to share.

I didn't write this. One of my fellow bloggers over at Four Sisters Farm wrote this, so go over there and comment. :)

Rooted and Established in Love (Reposted with permission)

I've recently become intrigued by a tree near our farm…or is it two trees? I’m not a horticulturist so I really don’t know - I haven't inspected it below ground level (The neighbors would probably think I'm strange since it isn't my tree).

This tree appears to actually be two trees that decided to work closely together. One trunk is sturdy and looks like it has been growing longer than the other; or maybe they started out at the same time and one was better suited to the ground from which it grew.

For me, this tree is a beautiful depiction of marriage. Two people choosing to intertwine their lives, their assets, their very beings into one. They share the seasons and are sustained by the same soil and environment. Each season brings different challenges and joys, various struggles and growth. These trees will never be separated except by the death of one or both.

This current season is cold and seemingly lifeless; and the trees, devoid of any evidence of actively growing, cling together and weather the season. I wonder what is happening during this dormant stage these trees go through each year...perhaps it is similar to times in marriage when things are less than fun, warm and friendly. When a couple is committed to God and to each other, there continues to be growth even when we can’t see it. Simply by staying together, something is happening…shared memories, resources, and relationships…things that shape a couple even when they are not aware. God is always at work conforming us in the image of Christ. I praise Him for the promise that He will not stop until the work is complete (Philippians 1:6)!

Ephesians 3:14-21 (NIV)

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Love 'Em Anyway

2011-02-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

Relationships are two-sided. They bring great joy and also stretch you beyond your comfort zone.

It seems like every time I get close to someone, they leave. That hurts! I'm having a very hard time dealing with this current season in my life. I know that relationships are vital to my growth as person, but they are not easy. They take committment. You make yourself vulnerable.

That song by Martina McBride called "Anyway" comes to mind.

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

That's what I'm going to do. As hard as it is to let them go, I have no choice. I do have a choice how I react to it, though. I choose to love people anyway.

I will not let this make me bitter. I will not close myself off to a relationship with this person. I wish them nothing but the best in life. They were a vital part in my life--for a season--and I don't regret one moment of it. They supported me. They believed in me. They were someone I could confide in.

It will be an adjustment, but I will get through it. It's a fact of life that some people are in your life for awhile and others are there for a lifetime. My heart will always have love for this person no matter what. The relationship just won't be the same as it once was.

God, help me to always be open. Help me to not allow my past hurts hinder me. Rather let my past hurts serve as a reminder of Your grace that I can make it with your help. I know that you will never leave or forsake me, so help me as I transition.

P.S. My friend has posted part 4 of Every Rose Has Its Thorn. Check it out!

Memories Rewind: From Scribbles to Smooth Strokes

2011-02-09T12:22:00.000-08:00

As a child, I struggled learning how to write in cursive because of cerebral palsy. I would stay after school with my precious third grade teacher for at least an hour working on making a cursive "h".

No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't make my pencil form the hump in the letter. I was beyond frustrated with myself! My teacher would always pat me on the back at the end of each study session. "You'll get it one of these afternoons," she would say with a smile.

Mama bought me some writing books so I could practice my letters. I was somewhat excited at the possibility of getting better yet also nervous because my previous attempts had ended with me in tears at times.

Despite my frustrations, I would get into a comfortable spot on the couch every night after I finished my homework and practice writing. I could see some letters start to form in the midst of the mess. "Look, Mama!" I said barely able to contain my excitement. She was smiling and encouraged me to keep practicing.

After several weeks of working hard, my letters were looking pretty good. I couldn't wait to show my teacher! Now, I get many compliments on my handwriting. It took a lot of patience and encouragement from those around me, though.

Don't give up because you never know when a rainbow [of pretty flowing letters] is right around the corner!

Let it Flow

2011-02-05T09:10:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the words just flow so freely. It's days like that you will see me typing the thoughts in my head as quickly as I can. In my opinion, words are like raindrops and you have to catch them and put them on paper before they disappear.

When the days are long, I find refuge in writing. I am at peace when I get the chance to release my thoughts. Some days, I feel a burden to write. Keep reading, I will explain what I mean.

This quote is one of my favorites: “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” –Maya Angelou

I think most writers can relate to that statement. I feel like I would be doing the people around me a disservice if I didn't share what was on my heart. What good is a gift if you never open (or use) it? I don't know about you, but I want to pour my heart out in the hopes of helping others. I hope this blog has been a healing balm when someone needs it. I hope this blog has made you laugh through your tears. I hope my story has helped you to see the value of life.

What inspires you to write?

P.S. My friend has posted Part 3 of her story today. The words were there, so she wrote what was on her heart. Take a few minutes to read it. Also, I've added share buttons to the bottom of each post. You can share my posts on Facebook, Twitter, StumbleUpon, E-mail, and much more!

I am not Superwoman

2011-02-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

Today is a get real with myself kind of day. I may be tall, thin, and opinionated, but Superwoman I am not. I'm a person that gets tired and frustrated just like everyone else.

There's only so much I can get done in one day. Yesterday, I had to come home from school because I started feeling awful. Pain in my hips and just feeling yucky. Normally, I would push myself to stay, but I could hardly focus on my work. "How are you?" my teacher asked. This was my chance to be honest with her...and myself. "Well, I could be better," I told her honestly. "Tell you what," she said, "Why don't you go home and we will reschedule your speech for another day?"

Wow. God knew just what I needed even if I had a hard time admitting it. If you know me in real life, you will understand why I hated leaving school yesterday. I genuinely love school. I pretty much always have. I get a rush like no other when I learn something new. I wake up (most days) excited to stretch the limits of what I think I know.

So, I came home yesterday and tried to rest. The reality is my assignments will eventually get done. Once again, I'm reminded that as long as I do my part, God will take care of the rest. Thank you Lord for always looking out for me.

Don't forget to click here and share your stories with us by linking up at the bottom of the post by February 7th!

Her Story

2011-02-02T18:29:00.000-08:00

My friend has posted Part 2 of Every Rose Has Its Thorn. If you missed the first part, please go on her blog and read it. It will make more sense that way. For those of you who read the first part, what did you think? Have you ever been in a hopeless situation? I'm so glad that God is right there with us, even when we think we are all alone.

I've always said everyone has a story to tell. My friend is boldly sharing hers, so I invite each of you to share something about yourself. Write something on your blog this week. It can be a short, funny, or serious post. It doesn't matter. Writing is therapetic to me and I think it will help you, too.

Link up your stories here so we can all read them! Just type in the URL of your post along with the title and your good to go. An example of a URL would be this: http://dropletsonajournal.blogspot.com/2011/01/energy-boost-would-be-nice.html

It will close on Feb. 7th.

The Rollercoaster of Life

2011-01-31T14:13:00.000-08:00

Life gets chaotic at times and has some twists and turns. A friend is blogging about a part of her life that was very difficult. The first part is entitled, "Every Rose Has Its Thorn."

Click the link to read about this very raw time. Life isn't always roses. Real life is hard. Sometimes you're happy and other times your sad. I just felt like sharing it because it takes guts to write honestly. She shared it in the hopes that what she went through will help someone else.

Seemingly Off Course

2011-01-27T07:13:00.000-08:00

I will try to get a Memories Rewind post up this weekend. I haven't forgotten, but I've just been extremely tired when I come home from school.

On the way to school, I had this image in my mind of someone running but they have no idea where they are going. They pass trees and hills, getting more confused by the second. Have you ever felt this way? I know I have.

A few years ago, I had an idea of what I wanted to do with my life. The problem was I didn't know how I was going to get there...or even when. Countless "detours" came into my path. Surgeries, illness, and injuries were my life for a few years. Suddenly, the plan for my life shifted a bit. It was no longer about how much I could do in a day, it was just about getting through the day with my attitude intact. To be honest, I didn't always accomplish that goal. I got frustrated, lonely, and depressed.

I put detours in quotation marks on purpose. Those things were meant to veer me off the path for my life, but they didn't. In all seriousness, they actually helped me to grow in ways I could have never imagined.

During that time, I started writing more like I did when I was younger. During the day, I had this overwhelming desire to put my thoughts, feelings, and dreams down somewhere. Back then, I had no idea anyone would ever read it. I'm so thankful that I did because now I have an online journal of my life. I'm still on the path that I started so many years ago, but it may take me a little longer to get there. The important thing is I didn't stop moving. I let my frustrations, fears, and every emotion under the sun propel me to do something more.

I would encourage each of you to do the same. If you are at a point in your life that you don't know which direction is up, keep moving. A common saying is, "God said if you will take one step, He will take two."