Frustration Mixed with Faith

Things have been moving along a little slowly. The sun is shining, but I don't have any energy to do anything. I was moved down a little more on the Fentanyl.

I've been on 25 mcg since 4/24/10

I start the next step of the journey on Saturday. I will be going down to 12.5 mcg. I'm trying to take it all in stride. I know that my body has to get readjusted, and right now rest is on my daily agenda. Don't worry, I've been sitting up a little on my good days, but it's not as much as I would like it to be. I'm just constantly reminding myself that everything I'm dealing with is a part of the process.

Frustration sets in at times. God is so good that He gently reminds me, "How can you be frustrated when you look at how far you've come?" That really puts things into perspective!
His Word to me and about me hasn't changed. He promised that He would carry me. He promised that His grace would be more than enough for me. In my times of frustration, these are the things I cling to. God is still worthy of my praise. He's still my deliverer, my guide, and my counselor.

Comments

Sybil Sanders said…
You are so brave and I pray every day that things will get better for you. We LOVE You.
6:25 PM
BK said…
I will keep you in my prayers as you take this next step. Your strong spirit and your faith in our Lord will get you through.
10:54 AM
tam7777 said…
You are a soldier. We always come out on top. You will make it and come out better than before.
9:43 PM
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